Chapter 1: The demonic encounter
I wake up there is a demon that I've been talking to it had laid out a big pentagram and it has me start shooting up a bunch of really terrible things like a heroin needle into my veins my own urine my own feces semen ear wax the meth and the heroin my wife's blood it was a defilement ritual one of them holds my feet up into the air so levitating in the air has a finger in my head dude from my thoughts it climax me started climaxing me over and over and over the demon that can say the name of Jesus is the most powerful one you cast a demon out of someone their life falls apart it's not because the demon came in it's because it's losing its grip they live for you their home is you this Antichrist Spirit claiming to be Jesus in my life started convincing me to do things you tell her that Jesus loves her but you flirt with her you let her know like you're turned on by her I started even evangelizing for the devil it would give me like words of knowledge I console her in the name of Jesus you're going to tell her you know about it I'm using Jesus's name to open somebody up sexually they would be like how did you know and I'd be like oh it's God the devil doesn't need you to know that it's him anything that's not the real Jesus is him stop lifting your hands and claiming the Holy Spirit when you don't got it and the Lord reveals himself to me this not a podcast this is a Deliverance Ministry God is going to deliver just as many if not more here than he does inside of church buildings but to release it because there's such a liberty and such a sa that you got to keep running back and bowing down and you got to keep giving yourself over to it it's proving it to you over and over in the weightiness of your anointing the Lord says thousands will be delivered hold up before you keep watching click the Subscribe button I'll wait n seriously subscribe right now also like and share this video the more you like share comment and engage with this video the more we're able to produce content just like this and also we got this merch got this merch the link is in description if you want to support the channel you can also donate that's also in the description the more you guys support the more we're able to produce content just like this thank you again peace brother it's not I don't have much words
Chapter 2: Introduction and background
for you I I saw your testimony online and I was just blown away I found out where you lived and I'm just like this man does not live anywhere near me it was my first time saying no I have to fly you out you I have to sit with you since then we just talk here and there and I just I'm like I need to meet this guy outside of the podcast I just I know that God has something for me through you and today has been evident of that Wyatt man welcome thank you so much for being a part of this podcast and I think you know our lives will never be the same after this man welcome bro thank you bro yeah yeah I got to say dude you did you hit me up God definitely confirmed that you were the place I needed to go the minute I confirmed dude I had like a ticket in the mail I'm flying out here you're solid bro you did a good job like appreciate it man thank you brother your story I've never heard anything like it let me just cut straight to the chase I've never heard anything like it you've gone to the depth of Darkness but God has brought you not just out but he's brought you all the way out and now you're going so hard for the kingdom but I just kind of want to know how did you get in trapped the way that you got in trapped because it's it's a lot man for most people that hear this a lot to accept oh yeah how'd you get there man okay so relate with you I was
Chapter 3: Early life and trauma
born maybe not you but a lot of American Christian boys and girls I was born into a Christian family okay I have a good mother and a good father who are wonderful people dude wonderful and I cannot at any place go back to my past and point a finger at something my parents did cuz it wasn't them they did the best they did a great job they're wonderful people there's never been a day I've walked into my house that my mom wasn't reading the Bible and and and and my dad is so solid for the Lord you don't play games with it you'll get rebuked really quick he like you you don't joke about Jesus in our house cuz my dad's just that guy like I remember I had a troubled friend who was older than me and and my dad was witnessing to her she was kind of an emo chick and I remember I was like 6 years old and I was watching my dad and he looked at her and said you know if someone came into the house right now and pointed a gun at my son and said you denounce Jesus Christ or we'll kill him he's like I wouldn't do it and that hit me so hard that was one of those things that stuck with me so hard because it was like man this thing could be like it was like this is real yeah this is real you know so I grew up with Christian parents I was a Christian okay I loved the Lord even little I remember having these little conversations with Jesus I just looking back I just love Jesus time goes on I get older we lived in a we lived on the mountain in this trailer house we didn't have Plumbing or electricity we were super Outback and we we would watch a movie like once a month cuz my dad had a generator okay so like just to give you we were we were rough bro but it was sick it was awesome it was like as a kid it was the best light we had all this land playing in the mud dude it was awesome so and and I was molested at four and 5 years old a few times by somebody I'm not going to even hint at who it is because I love this person very very much this person has apologized to me much later in life and I'm very very very in love with this Pro we're good it was a mistake the same thing that happened to me was happening to this person it's just this person was much older at the time like 10 years older than me and so I got molested the way that I described that situation was like eating from the Apple I remember being a little kid letting my mom give me a bath then that happened and just looking back I remember no Mom you can't see me naked no more just instantly five years old instantly just just like the Bible says man you do something shameful you hide from God you hide from your parents you try to hide because you know it's and so I did something that I believed was shameful yes and I wouldn't let my mother see me naked no more I don't think people
Chapter 4: Descent into darkness
realize how detrimental that is to somebody's Spirit come on I believe that that set the stage for an entire life of me trying to prove myself of me trying to feel wanted it just was a destruction to my spirit it honestly was and so I believe that that opened the door for any anything and mostly what what it was was Pride was Pride so as I got older I had a chip on my shoulder and I had something to prove okay and I started getting into fights a lot lot of fights a lot of fights I was just a fighter I would be like 14 years old I would drink like a bottle of vodka and then go stand in front of the bar waiting for the drunk grown dudes to come out so I could fight them like I was just a angry guy I would fight a lot a lot of fights I I got into this one fight where this dude I got jumped but like I ended up leaving this guy on the ground in a pull of blood and he wouldn't move it just it messed me up really bad I was like man I think I hurt him bad you know the whole time he didn't move and I had to keep fighting these other people I kept looking back and he wouldn't move and that pull of blood was getting bigger my wife's ex-boyfriend was drunk at a party there's no reason for me to hit him I knew I was going to win I Justified hitting him because I knew he was trying to start something with me I could have walked away but what I said was I'm going to walk away 3 feet to make it look like I don't want to fight but I really was it was it was manipulative and I wanted him to swing on me I wanted him to do something and I broke his jaw in two places and at 18 years old I had to pay $225,000 for his jaw for the surgery in his jaw I almost killed him poor like I almost killed the guy so I was constantly full of violence and full of Pride constantly and the next door to open was drugs okay yeah okay so so the Pride's there the molestation there the fighting's there the violence is there and now it's drugs and I didn't like weed okay so while my friends were smoking weed I found I could fit in if I snorted Percocet and that led you know through Middle School you know my first day of sixth grade I mentioned to you that I had I snorted a viking in on my perets my first day of sixth grade and that was just kind of patchy all the way through Middle School by 9th grade I was a full heroin addict smoking heroin every day and and you were functioning you still at where well I went to school but if I didn't have heroin I I wouldn't go I would hitchhike an hour to from curn to Grand Junction pick up my dope come back and just walk into school they wouldn't let that do they wouldn't let no one do that dude if if there's like a a public school but it's small and if someone just leaves they call the cops but like I just had this like demonic favor on my life bro and I could just get away with anything because I was just so willing to take everything further than everybody was willing to go if teachers told me not to do something it was like well let's go there I'll break the door off the hinges and they just weren't willing for me they didn't want to take it there they were scared of how far I would and so I got away with everything everything my whole life dude so all the way through high school I'm kind of an
Chapter 5: Family life and relapse
outcast I party every weekend I hang out with older kids but anybody my age I don't hang out with I don't fit in with cuz I'm I'm addicted to heroin in high school no one in my school's like that no no one close so I'm totally excluded the devil does that he puts you by yourself so I'm totally by myself I start listening to Eminem every day that song Kim where he's like yeah killing it I would pridefully play that as loud as I could so people would hear it and think of me crazy like I wanted them to think I was nuts and just over and over I listen to music like that I start dating my wife at I started dating my wife when I was a senior she was in the 11th grade and she a beautiful woman comes from a Christian family and what her father in my personal opinion is one of the greatest men I've ever met in my entire life maybe I'll get into that but he has been the biggest role model for me and I'll probably get emotional during this interview but that man if he had any idea how much I look up to him it's all good bro because I've done a lot of bad to his family and he still loves me and it just proves to me that Jesus Christ is Lord you know because there's no way you could forgive somebody of the things I've done to his family and and come sit on the porsch and put a hand on my back and say I love you son you're my son and you know and you're going to hear what I did to his like I got his wife or my wife addicted to heroin shooting drugs we I lose my daughter we get married we get a house my wife gets pregnant we have our daughter she relapses meth we were on methodone for a long time cuz we were both using drugs and then we got a methadone it's a prescribed opioid medically assisted treatment so you can take the methodone every day instead of you get it from a doctor instead of seeking heroin on the streets four years were're on that we have my daughter there was a traumatic experience when my wife gave birth to my daughter see people have this idea in their head of a perfect image of what things must look like and so when you give birth to your kid if it doesn't look like all the Hollywood movies look it traumatizes you and it makes you feel broken and the devil and so when my wife gave birth to my daughter I instantly saw it they tried handing my daughter to my wife and she didn't want to hold her she was just TR traumatized the whole thing traumatized her it just happened quick like she gave birth in like 15 minutes it broke her tailbone it was a really very bloody like it was just a intense situation it traumatized her and my wife got baby blues really bad because she didn't feel that connection so much right away yeah and she got baby blues really bad really really bad I didn't know how to handle it but keep in mind like I'm claiming Jesus Christ I
Chapter 6: The breaking point
claim to be a Christian yes I'm on methodone for cheating on my wife with adult content you know what I'm saying I'm I'm claiming Jesus Christ everyone knows me knows I claim Jesus but if you were to actually look at me I was the I was the more wicked person out of everybody who didn't claim Jesus you know what I'm saying so she relapses meth 9 months before I do and in that 9 months I built this animosity towards her like subconsciously it was like this self-righteous place of look what look what you're doing to our family how dare you you know but you know look at the 25 times she caught me watching the dog content look at the disconnect I failed my family long before she did and I can't look at God and say look what she did the woman you gave me God look what she did how dare we as men do that how dare we dude and we all are doing it this a generation of pointing a finger at our wives when we were given Authority and we were made leaders so I did that that's what I did I looked at my wife and I looked at God and said you guys messed it up and you get rebuked for that one the Lord there's that I don't even know where it is in the Bible exactly but I think it's Paul talking and he talks about how if somebody's sinning in the church and you guys come to him and you come to him with three and you come to him with four and you bring the church and he still won't repent then give him over to the devil so that hopefully he can repent right and that's what happened to me I got given over to the devil I relapsed meth heroin the hardest relapse I'd ever relapsed in my life within just a couple months my daughter was was CPS my wife and I are on and off but we're like not married anymore like she leave I leave we're driving around in our cars we're just shooting I'd be up for like 20 days at a time tons of drugs tons of it and I'm broken because by the time I relapsed I was already so broken you know I was so traumatized there was you know my wife had been shooting up meth for 9 months before I remember one just a fighting could you just imagine like we had this wonderful house beautiful home I'm a carpenter we have these nice cars and this new baby and you're shooting meth how dare you you better quit you better just stop and I'd yell at her all the time and then one night at it was like 3:00 in the morning she wakes me up cuz she can't it's all good you sh bud this is all up and down her GS and she couldn't she couldn't hit a vein and to the point where it was so frustrating that she had no other choice but to ask me to do it and she was up all night hiding it from me but that's just how bad you get dude like the person I'm hiding it from I am so certain I'm going to get this shot in my veins that I'm going to wake him up and and make him do it and I did bro because I couldn't dude it TR it traumatized me so bad dude it was like just she's one of the strongest women I've ever met in my life she's a wonderful woman she's been through more than anybody can say she's been through so much and there's going to be a lot of women that relate with this because there's been a lot of women who've been in that same position and we have to understand how much God loves us we have to understand that anybody who's beating someone down in that position you're the enemy because Jesus was with my wife and he was holding her heart and I was the one beating her down so that self-righteousness dude that Pride bro that's a snake it's a real demon and it'll eat you alive and I lost it dude I was so traumatized so broken so out of my mind lost that I just gave in so deeply to this addiction the mix of opiates and methamphetamines heroin and meth together and shooting it up is just the worst cocktail demonic sorcery there ever has been dude or fentanyl even and it's just so dark and it took me for the deepest ride that I've ever been on it completely changed my life forever my wife's gone now with another guy my one of my best friends whom I love very very much we do a lot of bad things when we're on drugs it's a whole mess I'm not pointing fingers I guarantee I traumatized all of them worse than any of them did to me you know what I'm saying so I'm not pointing a finger I'm just saying this is what happened she was gone with him they were driving around in his truck and all I can think about is hurting myself and I'm just dead my daughter's with CPS I just overdosed myself in the city market bathroom on purpose bad I got woken up by a janitor with the thing still in me and just the whole mess you know all I can think about is hurting myself and I go to my condemned house there was probably a thousand used needles in this place capless just everywhere so bad bro I was you know the the water's off the electricity's off the gas is off it's condemned the bank took it back all my stuff still in there it's locked I know how to get in and I needed a place to go so I went there okay this is really important at this
Chapter 7: The defilement ritual
point I had been talking to Demons almost only when I say talking to them like yes I was on drugs yes I was out of my mind yes I was a mess but we know these drugs open you up to spiritual things so I was seeing something that was there that other people couldn't and let me explain the I can lay this down in a way that makes sense so I fall asleep on my couch and I wake up and I don't have heroin and I don't have meth and I've been up for like 20 days I'm full of trauma self-righteousness self worship anger heroin meth withraw I wake up and I'm like freaking out and there is a demon that I've been talking to and it's acting like this angel I believe it's an angel because demons don't like to show up and go I'm just evil they show up and like I'm your friend I'm your grandma I'm your I'm I'm this angel of God and I'm going to fill you with pride and you're this chosen one yeah and that's the way it was talking to me and it it's so seductive and it comes and Whispers into my ear and it goes I know you're sick come come into the closet and I got something for you so I follow it into the closet that my wife had been spending that 9 months shooting drugs into and she had these Sharps Containers and in the Sharps Containers a Sharps Containers is like a safety box where you put your dirty needles into okay so you'll see them in like clinics real doctor's offices after they give you like a insulin shop and throw it in that red box okay so we had a bunch of those packed full and in those I found two shots one was heroin one was meth but they were fully clotted with my wife's blood and they had been in there for months dude and like this is intense this is raw but I had to like this demon told me break those open recook them so I had to like squirt the clotted Blood Out cook them up filtered it cooked them up filtered it and I shot it up and it was like a lot of drugs and I got really high and then this demon all seductive dude takes me back into my house and when I get or back into my living room when I get into my living room there's another demon there that I instantly knew to be some form of I couldn't figure out if it was Jesus or the devil I couldn't and and so looking back I know for certain that's the Antichrist because anti- meaning instead of he likes to act like Jesus and it's very confusing so his presence felt like holy but but I was also like what are you and so there was this other Spirit there and and it had laid out a big pentagram on my living room floor with my items my wife's items and my daughter's items the pentagram being the circle yes with the star yes okay it lays me down in the middle of it okay and the first demon is in my ear like moaning and talking dirty to me and and she's like she's like I know you were sick and I got something I want to pleasure you and she's like being really gross she has me cross my arms and she starts flashing some sort of demonic light in my face and this is again this is really raw but I was never going to talk about this stuff ever but I think it's important and I have to this demon this demon starts telling me that I'm in the upside down that Lucifer is good and that Jesus Christ is evil and I was like believing it I was like I could feel it I was like whoa you're right and it was telling me that only the wise ones get to ever come to this conclusion only the chosen ones ever figured this out and it was like proving it to my mind bro and that's the problem with Sin is Sin opens door for for the enemy when the enem is in you we are gouble dude bad and so it's telling me this and then it has me start shooting up a bunch of really terrible things like my own urine my own feces when you say shooting up what what does that even mean like like a heroin needle into my veins like my own urine my own feces seamen ear wax the meth and the heroin my wife's blood my own blood obviously it was a defilement ritual so after I shoot up all those things okay it was telling me that I am God and it was telling me that Lucifer is God and it was telling me I'm in the upside down and it's going to tear the veil and teach me the truth one of them holds my feet up into the air so picture this super demonic possessed situation a pentagram on the ground there's a man by himself in his mind he sees two demons in the room but if you would have walked in you would have seen him on his back with his feet up in the air like suspended truly demonic like levitating in the air with my shoulders on the ground and they were telling me to repeat it they were like Lucifer's the good one Jesus is the bad one so I'm repeating it and this thing's flashing this light in my eye and it has the the the first Spirit that's all lustful has a finger in my head dude and and it is it from my brain from my thoughts it climaxed me like truly sexually not have to touch myself start climaxing me over and over and over while this other Spirit was holding my feet up in the air and then all a sudden it was just done and from that point on I was on a
Chapter 8: Psychosis and survival
vicious psychotic demonic possessed rage to either hurt myself or somebody else no matter what from that moment on I believe the devil has ritualized the types of sins that it takes for someone to be demonically possessed like the Legion of demons okay that guy who had Legion what types of sins did he do to get that Legion okay I believe it's got to do with magic I believe it's got to do with false god worship exalting the devil right worship of yourself okay I believe it has to do with sorcery which is drugs the drugs are the sorcery and then poisons and defilements and sexual defilements and so and it makes sense because the portal okay what later on God has described to me is that this portal the the the pentagram is understood to be a portal and it is those sins ritualized to open someone up and possess them okay we'll get I want to I'll come back to that cuz we're going to loop around to that because right when I left that day I believed everybody could hear what I could hear I instantly became a God I believed everyone could hear what I could hear and see what I see as if I was the peak of them right I believe they were all living through me and it was right who was living through you everybody I went into full psychosis In This Moment full demonic throw yourself into fire like the Legion of demons that was throwing himself into fire me I went into that crazy and I believed everybody could see what I see and hear what I hear and I had to prove it so the way I was going to prove it was to drive my car right right into the back of the person in front of me and if that person got out of the way in time then they must have saw me coming right they must have been seeing what I was seeing here dude when God has Grace on your life even in such a terrible place as this when he loves you even in such a dark place as this guys bro I think I did that to like 20 cars that day every one of them got out of the way right in time like it makes no sense to me just the Lord protecting me and I mean like 90 miles hour except for two cars one was this duy dodge and I ended up like catching it right in the last moment swerving around it and then the other one was a a Mesa County sheriff on the interstate and like I tapped into this guy like I had to slam on my brakes and I ended up doing a bunch of wild stuff in that car at a Subaru WRX that I just rebuilt the engine before the relapse I ended up passing that cop at like over 100 miles an hour he didn't even try to chase me because there's a new law that if you're like endangering the public they don't try to chase you wow so then I get into Patterson in Grand Junction Colorado and it's a two lane a center turning lane and then a two lane on the other direction I'm going 110 down Patterson there's another cop so I get into that turning lane when I do there's another car here and I have to go into the oncoming and I pass that cop in the oncoming just I don't want to say certain words but deleting myelf mindset right yes like like so full of Rage so psychotic not quite willing to use a gun but I'm doing it today it's happening today and I'm just I don't care about this cop I don't care about anybody around me I do not care I am ending this thing I'm done like and so when I passed that cop I was going like 110 just this was my whole mind set every day I would drive through red lights dude all night long as fast as I could with my wife in the car just screaming bro just like praying someone with t-on us dude all night long like it was just I it's no joke it's no joke dude we and and you go like how does someone who was a Christian kid turn into this and and what I can narrow it down to Bro is you got to stop cutting them Corners you cannot you cannot claim Jesus Christ come on and live in sin because because the demon that can say the name of Jesus is the most powerful one and that's what I was filled with bro bro bro this is making everything make sense yeah okay
Chapter 9: Spiritual targets
so you had this ritual that's crazy that's insane does it continue so you're feel with r you're doing all this stuff that you know is self-sabotaging what does your life look like how are you are you encountering them are you hearing them are you seeing them oh it's non-stop talking to Devils just non-stop it's just Devils but they're just being crazy they don't do anything that makes sense everything they do is to confuse me but exalt me because there's this weird nasty way of demons think bro they're like to them creating a God is is creating a defiled Christian man who they literally just obliterate its mind and if it continues to survive they basically like exalt it so I was like becoming this nasty completely defiled false god in their eyes somebody that could face Yahweh and say your promis is on my life well let's see you say like like here's the thing as a man I'm attracted to my wife mhm what I learned about the devil during all this is he is truly truly attracted his Kryptonite is defiling Christian men why because two things the first and foremost is the one who died on a cross is a man that we Are Made In His Image Jesus Christ okay so he wants to in every way defile that one on the cross Jesus constantly number two is is Jesus said nothing can take tear you from my hands so if the devil can tear you from his hands it's the devil's way of proving that he's exalted like God that he can beat God so his Focus always is defiling Christian men this is why we must we cannot cut those Corners the Lord was not kidding when he said this he was not joking you can not do it you'll fall every time you because you have no armor on oh my God because you're walking in sin but you're claiming Jesus you don't understand that you are you're the biggest target you're the biggest Target and you're the only thing the devil wants to defile because he already has everybody else they're already going to burn right he he's already got them tricked he wants you he wants you he wants to prove he can he can defy God's word you're his Target you're his Target as a as a lukewarm Christian man 100% okay so why do you think okay I heard I understand but but women are sinning just as much as men yeah so you're trying to say that the enemy is not after women oh he's definitely after women okay so it's it's a rank thing first and foremost so so the Bible says that men are the glory of God and that women are the glory of man so ultimately he wants to defile women too he'll use women to defile men that's it he'll use women to defile men like you don't need to be a witch you just need to believe that you have no self-worth and no value and so you spend your whole life shaking it on the internet and you become a witch bro you literally are being used by the enemy to defile God's Christian men you don't need to be a witch you just need to crawl for the devil believing you have no value believing you weren't made the image of God because the moment a woman realizes she's made beautifully and powerfully in the image of God that a strong man guides her and leads her her worth skyrockets bro like my wife I pointed a finger at her constantly and when you you you but after I got right God took me back and he's like do you not realize that I gave you one of the best women in the world that she will follow you to the Grave that she follows you to the pit of Hell even and it's like the truth is I think most women are like that I think I think truly when we're doing our job right and we're putting Jesus Christ first there's something so attractive about that and there's something that that ultimately that they're just going to fall towards and even above that God has somebody planned for you men and women and when you do it the right way oh man the it's just yeah so much Glory Ah that's so good all right now tell me
Chapter 10: Drugs as sorcery
you were at this time using drugs some people are going to hear the story yeah of your encounter in that ritual and they're going to say well we could throw everything that this man is saying out of the window because drugs his mind is messed up because he's using drugs so what would you say to that okay so we'll get we're going to get more to that but ultimately drugs are sorcery so we look at all the physical things drugs are sorcery dude drugs is a demon drug like heroin is a demon it's all about legal right and so when you are making the conscious decision to defy God and do something you know you shouldn't do I in my I've had okay I've had demons get me high on heroin without me using heroin I've had demons get me high on meth for 5 days awake no drugs at all a year sober and they did this just to show me that that if I continued to defile myself I could have anything I wanted so it's all about legal right in my opinion the devil has put this physical physical physical physical physical physical physical science physical science and trying to take us away from the spiritual aspect but what it comes down to is Jesus I know I shouldn't be doing this I'm going to do it anyways and he goes okay and the moment you do that a demon enters into you and fills you with himself because the way that the Holy Spirit was supposed to consume our mind thoughts and emotions in that moment the heroin consumes your mind thoughts and emotions so the heroin becomes your God it becomes your Holy Spirit right in that moment yeah so so when people look at the at at the issue and they go well this guy was just out of his mind you're absolutely right dude I was on a demonic drug I believe it's sorcery and we all know that drugs open the door to the spiritual realm and and I almost don't think anybody in the world is going to deny that I mean hippies everybody all say you know you do LSD you do this even what's that what's that fell with the podcast that constantly he's really famous he talks about doing drugs all the time he's oh that wears dark clothes all the time no he's the the UFC guy oh Joe Rogan Joe Rogan so he talks about it too they all talk about it you do these drugs you open it up to God right so the whole world agrees on this yes now the next thing was this led to a head I finally got to the end of myself we could spend forever in this boat of the drug addiction times we could spend forever in that I got story after story after story but It ultimately led to a head I overdosed six times on heroin one time on fentanyl I tried everything I'm talking to Demons every day I'm doing like witchcraft I'm doing all this stuff and like not even knowing it really I'm just so like I didn't realize it was Witchcraft and most witches who've repented they won't really tell you that they were doing witchcraft they were like Spirit were you know like they didn't see it as a bad thing and that's kind of what I was I was like doing this terrible stuff believing I was some chosen God right and so all the overdoses I finally I get arrested with seven felonies on one arrest I do a bunch of time I get out on bond I get arrested with 12 felony charges on another arrest I ended up kicking in this door I stole two guns and a brand new truck B by myself I walked into sport man's Warehouse I asked for a 1911 CT 45 I acted like I put a bullet in it started waving it around I left on that like I a felony there and I fought some cops I I ran just every charge you can think of God just had to get me because I cried out to him finally finally with all my heart I was like Jesus I just need you to save me and the next day I lose my mind completely but I get arrested and that's where my my journey with sobriety begins is the next day of actually with all my heart crying out to Jesus and saying save me got saved at the time I
Chapter 11: The fruits of the heart
didn't think I was being saved but I was being saved right so I go to jail go to rehab and I get out and I'm doing really good except for the whole time I'm in jail and Rehab all I'm doing is push-ups and workouts because when I get out I am justified in my mind hurting people like people who did me wrong like I hated myself so bad for for giving up my daughter for losing my wife for losing my house but I couldn't face that so it was easier for me to to talk to this fake Jesus in my mind who had me convinced that that me hurting these people who were hurting women was like a a good thing so there was this one guy specifically that I was really good friends with and for some reason in my heart I just started trying to blame everything on him and I literally like planned his death five to 500 to 1,000 push-ups a day squats situps everything just training I I would write it out if I couldn't get to him physically I was going to poison it the whole thing just bad deal very evil ungrateful like look at everything I just did and I could somehow justify hurting this guy because of things he's doing wrong M and again I'm claiming Jesus I'm claiming Jesus bro but I couldn't see the pride I couldn't see I couldn't see I get out and I start talking to other girls all this stuff while blaming my wife I couldn't forgive my wife how dare you how dare you what you did you slept with all these guys at the time I'm talking to other women I gave up on my marriage because I blame my wife I blame God and the whole time I'm just like I'm a Christian and it's such a dark place to be in dude it's such a dark place to be in that is not good like there is fruits there's fruits to Christianity and I don't even there's fruits to the Holy Spirit there is fruits to a relationship with Jesus Christ and those fruits are love joy peace patience kindness goodness it's faithfulness gentleness self-control and there's others right but those are the fruits they're these good things go so if you are claiming Jesus Christ but the fruit in your heart is finger pointing the fruit in your heart is ungratefulness the fruit in your heart is they better repent look at them the fruit in your heart is is they're the enemy LGBT this they're the problem they need to change it's like yes if they don't change they we have a big problem but you have the whole Holy Spirit and the best thing you can come up with is repent or burn whoa what happened to the love man what happened to Jesus dying for them if he was willing to die for them if the father God was willing to give his son for them is that where it ended is that where it ended or should you be that much more willing to plead with them to love them to figure out how to look them in the eye and say I know I know you don't love the Lord I know you're into this this thing in the world right now but I don't want to spend forever without you and more importantly neither does the king man I don't want to SP so we keep going and I'm doing good I'm about a year sober yes I even got my business I'm making good money and I have a full-time employee and the devil wanted what was his so I'm trying to walk with God a little bit I'm trying to get sober I'm thinking getting sober is my repentance but it's about the heart and my heart wasn't repented I was just getting sober that didn't change nothing that didn't change nothing sober doesn't mean repented sober doesn't mean transformed so so I got sober all I wanted but I still blame my wife I'm still looking at other women I still got unforgiveness in my heart you know so the devil came for what was his I'm working about a year later and I did that ritual those rituals are serious dude you don't don't you don't play with
Chapter 12: Consequences of the ritual
that stuff you can't just walk away and you can't just walk away even crying out to Jesus the way that the Lord handled it was to show me the repercussion of it like he didn't just instantly heal me of it I had to War through this thing and you guys are going to hear what that looked like like the devil came for what was his I was in my shop we were building some stuff my brother-in-law was praying playing Christian music and I'm praising God at the top of my heart I could feel the Holy Spirit I could feel love and then God tells me I want you to tell your cuz there was one girl I slept with right right when I got out rehab and me and my wife are like we working things out we're living together we're trying to get right and I'm worshiping God and he's like I want you to go in there right now and you're going to tell her about that girl you slept with because I'm done watching you beat her up about all the men you know she slept with and she doesn't even know you did that and I'm like okay and God in all his kindness even made a a deal with me dude and I can't say what it is but he was like if you do this there's something I'm going to do for you and it's not a big thing it was just about respect it was about a certain person respecting me again all right thank you Lord so I went in inside I did that the second I did the way God set this up it doesn't make sense and this is why we can't lean on our own understanding sometimes we cry out to Jesus and our lives fall apart we don't you have to trust that God has got it under control so I go in there I look at my wife I tell her what I did it breaks her heart and I instantly just feel like a thousand demons dude come into my brain and I went into to the deepest psychosis instantly it made no sense at all I was doing good I was sober and it was like I did a giant shot of meth and just lost my mind instantly and I could see these demons there was a principality this nasty black and red demon he was standing on top of these big pile of rocks like a mile away from my house and he was set he was commanding demons and they were flying and coming into my head I could this all just happened I just saw it and like keep in mind I was just praising God a minute ago Dude but they came back for what was theirs because this when sometimes when you've done something so bad and you cry out to Jesus you cast a demon out of someone their life falls apart it's not because the demon came in it's because it's losing its grip and it's desperate it's desperate to hold on it's desperate to keep what was his whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa when you cry out to Jesus don't be surprised when you get a don't be surprised because because they live for you their home is you they have no other purpose we have like oh this life and I could you know do this that the demon only existence dude got one assignment is you exactly and so when it gets thrown out of you is detrimental it means it left heaven and it is now getting thrown into the pit and everything it left for is over it's all done and it's a it will fight more viciously than you can imagine so I get filled with those demons right then and there I go to the psychosis my wife's brokenhearted and I'm on the couch talking to myself and like begging her to help me and like could you just imagine what she was going through she's the strongest woman dude the next like eight months of my life I start developing a relationship with a spirit that claims to be Jesus in a more prominent way than I ever had before and I really believed it was God because like right after this
Chapter 13: The counterfeit Jesus
night my brother-in-law and I like we were working and there's these two girls who come up to our car they don't know each other one needs a ride to the hospital in Rifle the other one needs a ride to her truck that ran out of gas which is down by the hospital one came to me asking me for help the other came to my brother asking them for help and they didn't know each other wow and right when this situation came together I was like I'm going to lead we're going to lead both these girls to Jesus right now I could feel you Lord I know that's what we're doing we're going to lead them to Jesus right now like this is too coincidental they both need ride they're get I'm like yeah so that's what we did dude there was tears there was power there was Wonder there was prayer they asked Jesus to forgive them cried out to the Lord to save them in their situation in life it was wonderful but the repercussions of my past were still there I still had hatred in my heart I still had anger in my heart I still had unforgiveness in my heart there was still sins I hadn't confessed and the devil still had rights in me it's about that legal right and right after all that happened this devil came to me powerfully and he goes see son see if I feel you you can do things like that and I took the bait dude and at the beginning there was no difference like how could I tell that this wasn't the real Jesus like it just like come on that ain't Fair like I just LED two people to Jesus and then this thing starts talking to me like that's not fair well first of all the devil doesn't play fair and you can't underestimate him and second of all it wasn't long before this demon this Antichrist Spirit claiming to be Jesus in my life started convincing me to do things that I knew weren't Right started justifying things that I knew wasn't right and you have to understand how real this thing was I mean I am having full-blown conversations with it it says five words and I respond I'm hearing it as if you and I are talking all day long so real it's so smart it's so funny dude I would laugh at this thing's jokes for hours bro by myself could you imagine what that looks like to my family by myself laughing harder than anyone's everever seen me laugh dying on the ground laughing dude to jokes that are happening in my head and they were hilarious like where do you think these characters come from in the world bro like where do you think these nasty characters come from these perverted jokes come from where do you think all that comes from dude so this Devil's just being the funniest Jester he's a Jester bro he's a shape shifter but I'm thinking it's God you know and anyways it it starts having me cut these Corners again and one of the things it started telling me was see that really cute girl there I'm like yeah it's like she's hurt she's hurt son I'm like what do you mean see really beautiful girls they're never told they're beautiful cuz guys are really shy I'm like well that makes sense Lord that makes sense I've never told him they're beautiful and he's like he's like you need to you need to go tell her you tell her that Jesus loves her and but you flirt with her you let her know like you're turned on by her because that's going to make her feel better and right when this happened I was so just like yeah I get to fulfill like righteously fulfill both I get to fulfill my righteous side and my lustful side and God's saying it's okay and so I I did that and what happened was was this girl was extremely acceptive she was beautiful and I had never I didn't do that with beautiful women before I was a self-conscious guy who shot up heroin and I needed drugs to feel okay right so now I'm sober and I'm talking to this woman and she's like about it wow so that was the beginning of the devil I started evangelizing for the devil so I had a double life and while this was happening it's like I never never I never it truly was double when I went home and I was with my family that demon like quieted and just acted like Jesus and I'm like yeah guys you read your Bible blah blah blah right but then I'd leave and that demon would go okay now let's go let's go let's go get these girls Spirits let's make sure they're lusting after you let's and I would and it would give me like words of knowledge I remember one time the first time this happened there was this one girl specifically and it told me that two weeks ago at a party she got grape to at a party she got too drunk and two guys did something to her right it said you're going to go up to her you're going to like console her in the name of Jesus you're going to tell her you know about it and then you're going to hit on her like truly hit dude it's like I'm using Jesus's name to open somebody up sexually dude that's what I was doing and it was working and it would drop their jaw they would be like how did you know and I'd be like oh it's God he loves you he thinks you're beautiful wink wink and so do I and I started spiraling into this really demonic extremely disgusting pattern bro and and it the devil doesn't need you to know that it's him anything that's not the real Jesus is him he didn't I didn't need to be worshiping Lucifer I just needed to be worshiping a kind of Jesus a sort of Jesus a little bit Jesus a halfway Jesus 999999999999999 2000 Jesus as long as it wasn't the real Jesus it's Lucifer himself and if it is not for it is against and and and it's it's a big deal it's a big deal
Chapter 14: The nature of the enemy
we all got to make sure we got our Jesus straight we got to make sure dude and the way you do that is you cry out it's about your hope it's not about oh I'm making my righteous decision to call on you lord it's about realizing you are in danger you you can't beat this devil and you can't beat your flesh and you need to cry out to Jesus Lord save me my enemy surrounds me I need you I submit see if we're not doing that I'm worried that we have a warm Jesus a lukewarm Jesus if I'm worried we have a kind of Jesus that is there when we want him to be but then That's Not Jesus at all but it's not Jesus at all that changes everything so you're saying oh my God yeah bro the Jesus that that when you watch adult content you feel really bad about it but you go well Jesus will just forgive me then you do it and then this warm comforting voice comes in and goes I forgive you son and you go yes I'm forgiven but but the change in your heart didn't happen you didn't repent you didn't go I will never do it again and you bow your life and you don't change if you don't do that if you are like I'm never going to hurt you again Lord then the Jesus who came in there and goes I'll forgive you son I forgive you I forgive you and he warms you up and makes you feel better that's an anti- Jesus and that prophecy about the Antichrist walking into the temple of God and claiming to be God is fulfilled right in that moment dude because he's an dude I'm telling you telling you dude I'm telling you oh my God wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait oh my gosh going into inhabiting and defiling the temple y makes sense huh he doesn't have to like we know that the temple is it's a Christian [Music] man I'm not saying I'm not saying there won't be a man who walks into a real Jewish temple and claims to be gas I'm just saying spiritually that same thing is happening when you let a false Jesus into your heart and you call it Lord what are you calling Lord what is this thing cuz the Same Spirit bro that you know is cool with that ungratefulness is actually the same pedophilic spirit is actually the same spirit that is killing Christians around the world is actually the same Spirit that we exalt through serial killers on TV It's All The Same Spirit there's no halfway there's no kind of there's no a little bit it's for or against it's not Jesus for the devil bro God is punking the devil now he rose from the dead dude and he put his hand around Satan's neck and he's literally using him at this point you are the devil at this point it's either are you for God or against him it's not this war between Satan and and and God people got to realize that you're at war with God you are at war with God and God will use the devil as a weapon against you if that's what you want bro there's we the Lord won bro we people think that Satan's just running around under his own free will absolutely not he's told what to do he's told what to do he doesn't make his own decisions but he has a nature and God allows him to be who he is and his nature is always the worst thing it always leads to death it always is not that bad until it becomes that bad and that's why generation after generation we always look at the one behind us and go well they were better the one behind us looks at them and says oh these terrible kids but the one right in the middle we never see it we're like oh it's not that bad but we are in the pot and the water's getting hotter and we're not noticing it oh and it is leading to a place of absolute psychotic destruction saturnalia in the streets just the worst I've seen dude what is coming you can't hide from you won't be
Chapter 15: Idolatry and objectification
able to run from it and it is because that same ritual that happened in my living room with the magic okay with the sexual defilements with the sorcery the drugs with the poisons and the bad foods okay and with the false god worship and the self worship that five-fold defilement ritual is exactly what is happening in this country right now 1 hour, 4 secondsperiod the Disney Channel handled the magic and everything else that we don't even raise our kids no more right the Disney channel does this m these are 1 hour, 12 secondsancient Arts that are being turned into fun little things dude these are not good like we didn't take the Bible serious when God said like I will dude 1 hour, 20 secondshe was killing every man woman and child in countries that were practicing these Arts that we are letting raise our 1 hour, 27 secondschildren now you know so when I'm laying in my living room dude and I'm defiling myself sexually 1 hour, 36 secondsokay with these demons well you think it's God that made all the adult content or the demons that did so so you too are 1 hour, 45 secondswhen you're watching adult content you're defying yourself with demons when when you're exalting this magic and 1 hour, 51 secondsthese and these these murderers these these Jason and Freddy and we 1 hour, 58 secondslove them can you we love them we tattoo that we're not seeing it we exalt 1 hour, 1 minute, 7 secondsmurderers dude we exalt killers and they are our superheroes We love it we're not 1 hour, 1 minute, 14 secondsseeing it we were born in the belly of the Beast and don't make any sudden movements cuz it's about to and I'm 1 hour, 1 minute, 24 secondstelling you that ritual that happened to me on the floor we are going through the same thing right now the purpose was to 1 hour, 1 minute, 31 secondsopen me up to make me get filled with spirits and go Legion of demon on everybody and I am actually afraid that 1 hour, 1 minute, 39 secondsthe same sins are ritualized in this country in the last 100 years we've been 1 hour, 1 minute, 45 secondsgoing through the exact same thing why it has to be the worst situation it has to be we are in the Melting Pot we are 1 hour, 1 minute, 55 secondsin the pot the water's getting hotter and all of a sudden one day it's going to start to boil and I'm afraid we're right there right there right there bro 1 hour, 2 minutes, 5 secondsbro you okay there's so many questions I have based on this conversation and some of the things that I've already heard so you say you've talked to Satan 1 hour, 2 minutes, 15 secondshimself yeah and then I want you to kind of talk a little bit about your experiences with these demons and the 1 hour, 2 minutes, 22 secondssexual activity because some people have had encounters like that whether in the dreams it's like wet dreams I want you to kind of get a little bit into how 1 hour, 2 minutes, 31 secondsdeep you were in that world yeah so dreams would have been everybody has demonic dreams 1 hour, 2 minutes, 37 secondseverybody has sexual dreams this was real this was real 1 hour, 2 minutes, 44 secondsso these demons were climaxing me regularly I wouldn't have to touch myself they could be anything I 1 hour, 2 minutes, 51 secondswanted they're shape shifters it it was like the defilement of my spirit allowed me to see him but others 1 hour, 2 minutes, 59 secondscouldn't and so I remember one time so my neck tattoo it means Hora Daka it 1 hour, 3 minutes, 8 secondsmeans it means the Lord's blood turns me on because what eventually ended up happening was is I cut so many corners to the point of starting to believe that 1 hour, 3 minutes, 16 secondsJesus Christ was in love with me and that his blood was actually this sexualized thing and that I was this 1 hour, 3 minutes, 25 secondschosen br of Christ and I was the special one who got to experience now what he was saving for us all in 1 hour, 3 minutes, 34 secondsheaven and so I would lay there while his angels would climax me and I would see him on a cross and he'd be bleeding 1 hour, 3 minutes, 43 secondsout on me and it was his blood they would use as it's dark I've never T there's a lot of people in my family have not heard anything like this before 1 hour, 3 minutes, 51 secondsthe world's never heard anything like it and it's true my neck means Mor Daka it means the Lord's blood turns me on and 1 hour, 3 minutes, 59 secondsIED me so much it brought me this necklace like a gift it was like turned on by it was getting vulnerable with me 1 hour, 4 minutes, 7 secondsand it wanted to exalt itself through me so it had a body image that it was trying to create of itself through me 1 hour, 4 minutes, 14 secondsand this neck tattoo was part of it my hand tattoo was part of it and so when I would I would have this tattoo on I would do these rituals at night not 1 hour, 4 minutes, 22 secondsreally their realizing their rituals at the time at the time bro I couldn't I was so deep into worshiping a false 1 hour, 4 minutes, 29 secondsJesus okay and this is the extremes of things but Jesus warned us of the extremes of things he said just when you think peace and or peace and safety 1 hour, 4 minutes, 37 secondscomes destruction are we going to look at God and say no no no no I don't never happen you know what I'm saying it's going to happen he warned us Paul warned 1 hour, 4 minutes, 45 secondsus about a false Jesus okay so I would do I would have this I 1 hour, 4 minutes, 53 secondswould sleep with these demons at night and they 1 hour, 5 minutes, 1 secondcreated the personality of who I was my whole life as I fell in sin so they knew exactly what kind of like perfect woman 1 hour, 5 minutes, 10 secondsI would want so the way these angels came to me was exactly that just I there's no way my flesh was denying it dude like ai ai can create create this 1 hour, 5 minutes, 19 secondscrazy beautiful image of a woman that's them dude they could just create anything they wanted and it appear to be that way to me and I I was hit and I 1 hour, 5 minutes, 27 secondsremember one time I was laying there and I was in this room with like 30 demons that I thought were angels and 1 hour, 5 minutes, 34 secondscharacters of The Bible like like King David was there we were all like this nasty family bro like it sick and 1 hour, 5 minutes, 42 secondsthey're doing things to me but the real true God opened my eyes to what was really happening at the moment and for 1 hour, 5 minutes, 51 secondsjust a glimpse everything that I thought was there went away and I was surrounded by cloaked 1 hour, 5 minutes, 58 secondsmen and they were like praying over me but I knew they weren't actually there it was like they were somewhere far away 1 hour, 6 minutes, 5 secondsbro and they were offering me to Lucifer in this moment they were defiling me bro and then I saw the real demon that they 1 hour, 6 minutes, 14 secondswere summoning and it was this Massive Spirit over the whole house and its arm came in 1 hour, 6 minutes, 22 secondsand it was like the best way I can describe it was each one of those characters that were doing things to me was like a finger like that's how gnarly these demons are they're so wise they're 1 hour, 6 minutes, 30 secondsvery smart they have a really serious case of Mer multiple personality disorder and they can just create like dude I had relationships with these 1 hour, 6 minutes, 39 secondsSpirits I had handshakes with these Spirits I had memories with each one of them I just every time I was around different ones they smelt differently 1 hour, 6 minutes, 47 secondsthey tasted differently they felt differently one would tell me certain jokes like I loved them I was infatuated I don't know about men who understand 1 hour, 6 minutes, 55 secondswhat it is to be married for 10 years and then all of a sudden there's a really cute girl at work and they get this infatuation they can't stop thinking about her that is what I had 1 hour, 7 minutes, 4 secondswith the devil times like a thousand I couldn't stop thinking about him I was consumed and every day got more exciting 1 hour, 7 minutes, 12 secondsevery day and I was just chewing my way into the pit of Hell dude I was going to burn in hell for forever without a doubt if the Lord 1 hour, 7 minutes, 20 secondsdidn't save me so the devil puts this on my neck okay he puts when you say he puts it on your neck what do you mean he 1 hour, 7 minutes, 27 secondsgives me the idea and then gives me this motivation to just hurry up and go get it tattooed and I knew I needed it quickly and you knew the image what it 1 hour, 7 minutes, 35 secondswould look like and yeah he told me what it was he said get the lotus flower you I was going to do it purple but I'm not doing it we'll get to that and then 1 hour, 7 minutes, 43 secondsthe wings and then it was like a quick thing like I got the I got the idea I went to the tattoo artist gave it to him 1 hour, 7 minutes, 50 secondsand two days later we were doing it and it was just so quick looking back I can see the urgency 1 hour, 7 minutes, 58 secondsthis demon wanted me to get it before I came to my senses he was just like hurry up and go get this and I felt like I needed it even my wife was like are you 1 hour, 8 minutes, 6 secondssure you know and I'm like yes the Lord wants me to get this tattoo when my wife comes around maybe we'll come to another one with 1 hour, 8 minutes, 14 secondsyou I looked her dead in the eyes Jesus wants me to get this tattoo I was convinced of it dude she didn't know I 1 hour, 8 minutes, 23 secondsused to say that to her the Lord's blood turns on and I'd see her face turn white and she'd be like and in my eyes I was like why are you evil oh my gosh I was 1 hour, 8 minutes, 32 secondslike why are you rejecting the Lord dude like why when I talk about my relationship with Jesus are you getting sick I could see it bro let's talk about 1 hour, 8 minutes, 42 secondshow the devil exalts an image through a man okay and so when you worship praise 1 hour, 8 minutes, 48 secondssing along to love idolize a man that the image of the principality or the demon has been exalted through the way 1 hour, 8 minutes, 56 secondsthat that devil actually takes out his worship of himself so I didn't have the neck tattoo now I got it I didn't have the hand tattoo hand tattoo now I got it 1 hour, 9 minutes, 5 secondsokay he would he would kind of tell me about the certain people certain women who are going to be at the mall that day and he said you need to dress 1 hour, 9 minutes, 13 secondslike this so I would go get the right clothes so now he's got my tattoos he's got my hair done the way he wants it he's got the clothes dude there clothes 1 hour, 9 minutes, 20 secondsI would never wear like this is me right here like I always been you ask people who know I've always been long socks this is me right but I'd be wearing like knee high shorts with like basketball 1 hour, 9 minutes, 28 secondsshoes and tank tops bro like not me at all but I knew there was women at the mall who were going to die for it that 1 hour, 9 minutes, 35 secondsday so the moment that I go talk to these girls and they' have their hand in my hand and they're trying to follow me 1 hour, 9 minutes, 42 secondsout to my car that devil I felt it he was like okay she worships me through 1 hour, 9 minutes, 49 secondsyou because it wasn't me it was in an image that the devil made of himself 1 hour, 9 minutes, 57 secondsthrough me so when she's lusting after me it accepted 1 hour, 10 minutes, 3 secondsit as worship and if it's accepting it as worship so does God you know what I'm 1 hour, 10 minutes, 10 secondssaying if God looks down if the if if the devil is accepting it as worship of himself God is looking down going yep 1 hour, 10 minutes, 18 secondsyou're worshiping the devil you know what I'm saying because Satan doesn't want it unless God sees it that way you know that makes me also think and 1 hour, 10 minutes, 26 secondsrealized when God decided to make Man In His Image it wasn't as simple as we thought it was because the enemy is just 1 hour, 10 minutes, 34 secondshe just tries to replicate and imitate it was a Divine Providence thing because in the way that we live and we were just 1 hour, 10 minutes, 41 secondstalking about this earlier today and we love with the character of God people can literally experience God through US 1 hour, 10 minutes, 48 secondsexactly literally if we operate in a way that misrepresents God it is like literally is defilement is like it's 1 hour, 10 minutes, 57 secondskind of the worst rep misrepresentation that we can do and so the enem is trying to get that Glory from that image is 1 hour, 11 minutes, 6 secondsalso just trying to poison what God had done divinely by making us in His image exactly bro that's exactly it that's it 1 hour, 11 minutes, 13 secondsand people hear those words and not understand them but that is it like like if you are not for you are against 1 hour, 11 minutes, 21 secondsperiod Jesus wasn't playing around it really there's it really is so so we've heard all the nasty stuff Chapter 16: Demonic hunger 1 hour, 11 minutes, 32 secondsI do want to there there's one more part that I did not hear you talk about where you were talking about they wanted to 1 hour, 11 minutes, 39 secondsfeel and taste and hear oh bro I'm glad you brought that up that's so important 1 hour, 11 minutes, 46 secondsokay they are noodies so we're somebody they're noodies they've been fallen from Grace 1 hour, 11 minutes, 55 secondsthey've fallen from the kingdom they've fallen from the body they had some spiritual form of a body in heaven they 1 hour, 12 minutes, 2 secondsthey used to be exalted powerful angels in heaven they are now nobodies they don't have a body so I'm glad you brought this up this is very 1 hour, 12 minutes, 10 secondsimportant so when I was demonically possessed and I'm having sex with them or I'm eating and stuff right they would 1 hour, 12 minutes, 18 secondsget to the point where they like I would eat some chocolate and i' hear all the demons and see they'd be standing in the living room they'd be in my head just a mix of both those things right and 1 hour, 12 minutes, 27 secondsthey'd be like we can't taste it we don't have a body give us permission let 1 hour, 12 minutes, 34 secondsus taste it please and they just start begging me dude and to the point of where i' be like okay okay yes yes you guys can taste it praise God dude we all 1 hour, 12 minutes, 43 secondsget to taste together dude by this point I was so out of my mind that it just did I wasn't even asking questions no more you know what I'm saying it was just they believe you things when you get 1 hour, 12 minutes, 51 secondsthis demon in you they can just start telling you what you believe you just believe it dude and and yeah so 1 hour, 12 minutes, 59 secondssay you can imagine where that went so sexually they would get me to the point of climax where like you want it really bad and they say -not unless you 1 hour, 13 minutes, 8 secondslet us do it with you not unless you let us feel with you I had to like beg them it it wasn't good enough for me to just 1 hour, 13 minutes, 15 secondssay yeah yeah you guys can they had to wait for me to get to that point and then go yes just feel it just feel it with me it was about begging them to 1 hour, 13 minutes, 24 secondscome further into to me as deeply as I could it was it just wasn't enough to just say yeah come on in it was about 1 hour, 13 minutes, 30 secondsneeding them to come in dude and another thing they described to me was 1 hour, 13 minutes, 38 secondsthe Nephilim so again by this point I was just so out of my mind so how does 1 hour, 13 minutes, 45 secondssomething without a body get something with a body pregnant so you know what the Nephilim are right they were the 1 hour, 13 minutes, 52 secondsGiants they were the heroes of old the son of God the Angels came down and fornicated with women right it's a very terrible thing it's a spirit of 1 hour, 14 minutespedophilia dude because something of a higher knowledge takes advantage of something with less knowledge it's pure pedophilia 1 hour, 14 minutes, 9 secondsthat's what people don't see you don't realize how wise these Spirits are they see so much more than we are the way God has described it to me is he's 1 hour, 14 minutes, 17 secondslike it would been great if it was like a 40-year-old man seducing a 2-year-old girl with a lollipop he's like it is so 1 hour, 14 minutes, 25 secondsmuch worse than that what they did to you and what they're doing to everybody and what they did to these women back in the Genesis days so much worse because 1 hour, 14 minutes, 33 secondsimagine having so much knowledge knowing exactly what to say to someone to trick them into wanting them and then doing it and just they did that right 1 hour, 14 minutes, 41 secondsso true pedophilia bro but anyways they explained to me that if I was willing to let them in deep 1 hour, 14 minutes, 49 secondsenough if I continue to like have sex with them and do these it's a defilement if I contined to completely defile myself continue to hurt my wife continue 1 hour, 14 minutes, 58 secondsto hurt my kids continue to put everything before God continue to worship myself as the devil or of of Jesus right of of the coming Christ they 1 hour, 15 minutes, 7 secondscalled me the third Adam and and they another thing they like to do is call you 144 they feather you with that they 1 hour, 15 minutes, 14 secondssay you're one of the 144,000 that's totally an attack from the enemy I I don't believe the 144 are going to know who they are until the time is needed 1 hour, 15 minutes, 22 secondsbut anyways so they said if you let us use you if you're like defiled enough I'm quoting or not quoting I'm just 1 hour, 15 minutes, 30 secondstelling you what they're initially saying and if you let us use your body we can birth like a Christ through you 1 hour, 15 minutes, 38 secondsand they were without saying it they were trying to get me to use my body so that they could possibly you birth a 1 hour, 15 minutes, 46 secondsNephilim bro they were really and and so the way that it's been described to me now the Lord has described it to me is 1 hour, 15 minutes, 54 secondshe said you know how the father who is holy and righteous and perfect and undefiled and so loving and only ever 1 hour, 16 minutes, 1 secondwants what's best for you put his Spirit into Mary she was undefiled she never 1 hour, 16 minutes, 8 secondshad sex with man it's not this weird thing where God had sex with Mary it's not it was powerfully made wonderfully cared for right she was not defiled yes 1 hour, 16 minutes, 18 secondsand then the the spirit of God comes into this man in his birth yes through a virgin yes the devil does it equally 1 hour, 16 minutes, 27 secondsopposite or worse like it it's the defilement of taking a demonic Spirit having someone so sexually abused and 1 hour, 16 minutes, 35 secondsdefiled and traumatized okay giving their Free Will of their reproductive organs over to a spirit it takes two people to agree to this you can't just 1 hour, 16 minutes, 44 secondsget some woman pregnant you can't do it and when this baby is born it does not it will never be redeemable it does not 1 hour, 16 minutes, 52 secondshave the mind of a baby it truly is a conscious devil who is like okay now let's deceive the world seriously bro 1 hour, 17 minutes, 1 secondand I know that's a lot to take in I know people are going I don't know what to tell you I was demonically possessed and this is what they were trying to get 1 hour, 17 minutes, 10 secondsme to do and I'm like why would you be trying to get me to do it if like they didn't hopefully see a chance of it 1 hour, 17 minutes, 17 secondshappening you know what I'm saying like and this was every day constantly there were always there was there was I can't say the women names but there was a 1 hour, 17 minutes, 26 secondscouple women specifically that they thought they might be able to do this with convinced to do this and so like they were constantly having me go after 1 hour, 17 minutes, 35 secondsthese girls but and what was the thing about them having you go after married women well obviously it wanted to
Chapter 17: The final torment
1 hour, 17 minutes, 45 secondslike own them and the way that I can describe this Antichrist spirit is it wouldn't let me leave the mall unless it 1 hour, 17 minutes, 53 secondslike knew every girl girl in the store and it knew that it could get them it needed to know that they were it it was like it was like you guys can date these 1 hour, 18 minutesmen you can marry these men just as long as I know that anytime I can show up and you have a you have a fight on the wrong night I can take you I can take your wife that was the mentality of this 1 hour, 18 minutes, 8 secondsthing responsibility I can't face God and blame the devil I won't do it Jesus died on the cross and forgave me of my sins right 1 hour, 18 minutes, 17 secondsso that was the main thing the wisdom it would give me to do this sometimes I knew that if I like saw a 1 hour, 18 minutes, 25 secondsbeautiful couple very beautiful you could tell they go to the gym together big dude beautiful woman and they'd be like out eating lunch on like a patio 1 hour, 18 minutes, 32 secondssomewhere I knew that if I walked up to him and like in this weird crazy way 1 hour, 18 minutes, 38 secondsrespected him but I was like man you have a gorgeous wife beautiful bro I 1 hour, 18 minutes, 47 secondsknew that like in her spirit something happened in this way of like he's kind of cute I mean I'm married I wouldn't 1 hour, 18 minutes, 55 secondsthat was just enough bro it was enough for this thing it was like it was like planting seeds dude of I don't even know 1 hour, 19 minutes, 3 secondshow to explain it other than that that's what I was doing constantly so it didn't even need you to sleep with the women no it didn't need me to sleep with them at 1 hour, 19 minutes, 12 secondsall it is not about a physical interaction it is about the heart and that's why if the devil wanted us to sleep with each other we would do this 1 hour, 19 minutes, 19 secondsgiant orgy everywhere but that's why we have billion dollar industries of adult content because because it's about the 1 hour, 19 minutes, 28 secondsheart it's about the heart so I didn't need to sleep with these women and I wouldn't I wouldn't I just knew when they lusted after me cuz that demon 1 hour, 19 minutes, 37 secondswould be like check go to the next one it was just all day all day all day hours every day hours bro all day next 1 hour, 19 minutes, 45 secondsgirl next girl I go to the mall every store I go into every place I go into the Buckle bro oh this is crazy I'd go into like the Buckle in the mall I'd 1 hour, 19 minutes, 52 secondshave every girl surrounding me giggling I'd be like they' be like what are you doing in here you know and i' be like oh I just saw a bunch of cute girls in here like just the flirty blah blah blah 1 hour, 20 minutesright and knowing what I was doing to all of them it was it was wicked right I want to come if I can 1 hour, 20 minutes, 9 secondsremember to come back to this I did this for a long time no one ever had a problem with it bro but the minute I repented and I go in there to start 1 hour, 20 minutes, 17 secondstelling people about Jesus they trespassed me I went in there to be a pervert dude for months 1 hour, 20 minutes, 25 secondsbro the mo then I have this long period where I don't go to the mall at all I go back and I just start telling people about Jesus for a couple days they kick 1 hour, 20 minutes, 33 secondsme out call the cops and trespass me bro the world doesn't want Jesus dog they want they the world wants me to keep 1 hour, 20 minutes, 40 secondsflirting with your wives for you to say that it's it's in 1 hour, 20 minutes, 49 secondsthe heart it's in the heart it's in the heart oh my gosh then that just means we we need to be so much more surrendered than we think well we have to 1 hour, 20 minutes, 59 secondsrealize that we have to cry out to Jesus to save us we need our hope to be in him you 1 hour, 21 minutes, 8 secondscan't do this alone I'm sure the point I'm trying to make is no matter where you put your hand you're going to fall 1 hour, 21 minutes, 15 secondsyou you have to understand you canot do this alone you need to cry you need to realize you're at War and that you're 1 hour, 21 minutes, 24 secondsgoing to lose L and you've already lost he said he said those who don't believe in the son are condemned already you need to cry out you need to say I'm 1 hour, 21 minutes, 32 secondssorry Jesus I'm so sorry save me you know and that's the place we need to 1 hour, 21 minutes, 40 secondsbe in dude not in the oh I'm glad I'm not like them Lord and you didn't make you know many of us I know I thought where we just go like oh I'm glad I 1 hour, 21 minutes, 49 secondswasn't born gay or you know what I'm saying like so many of us are just like and it's like you don't realize that the 1 hour, 21 minutes, 56 secondssame spirit in you what if the spirit in you is worse what if the one claiming the name of Jesus spreading a lukewarm 1 hour, 22 minutes, 3 secondsspirit is the worst demon and the trick is the whole time that we're pointing at these satanists but we're taking the 1 hour, 22 minutes, 11 secondsbait because we're look we're made to look like haters because all they want to do is just live their life and at the end of the day they're not doing all 1 hour, 22 minutes, 18 secondsthese nasty stuff we're claiming to be good yet doing all the same things and at the end of the day we're just Hypocrites it's just we're taking the baate and we're all part of this nasty 1 hour, 22 minutes, 26 secondsscheme of the devil bro to just accuse us to everyone and to get us to hate them and it's just it's bad dude it's really 1 hour, 22 minutes, 33 secondsbad so talk to me bro you're you you went down this dark path you're living this out the ritual has you you're bound 1 hour, 22 minutes, 41 secondsin your mind how do you come to a place because there's so much to talk about with you know with this this Paul's 1 hour, 22 minutes, 48 secondsJesus yeah it's all just it just so all of this thing was a plan to 1 hour, 22 minutes, 56 secondseither kill me or to use me and these rituals are always if you survive the ritual they exalt you into more 1 hour, 23 minutes, 5 secondsknowledge if you survive the RIT because it's about the trauma it's about the defilement so if you survive the ritual they exalt you so there was this big ritual that was coming to take place it 1 hour, 23 minutes, 13 secondsall came down to this I believe this is Jesus this is my hope I'm going to have sex with him in heaven forever his blood is what turns me on I've been 1 hour, 23 minutes, 21 secondsdefiled in it many times I picture him bleeding out on me while I'm having sex with demons that I thought were Angels it all comes down to this but this is truly my hope you got to remember I was 1 hour, 23 minutes, 29 secondsa Christian as a kid who just completely lost my way so somewhere deep down I still needed Jesus you know so but I believed this thing was Jesus more than 1 hour, 23 minutes, 38 secondsanything and this thing loved its creation and when this thing had to send its creation to hell it really hurt it really and it started telling me about 1 hour, 23 minutes, 45 secondshow much could you imagine could you imagine burning something for eternity that you love it does a lot to your head and I was like yeah I can imagine well 1 hour, 23 minutes, 54 secondsthere was this thing it had to do the Rapture was starting and it had to go judge a bunch of people and send them into hell and so it was gone for 24/7 1 hour, 24 minutes, 3 secondsand I'm just hanging out with these angels 20 24 hours and I'm just hanging out with these angels and all of a sudden one night my wife just fell asleep she's been asleep for about an 1 hour, 24 minutes, 10 secondshour I'm up again tweaked out but I'm sober no drugs this is all just I'm over a year sober at this point just going 1 hour, 24 minutes, 18 secondsthrough this with these demons dude and I'm up by myself and all of a sudden all the angels I love go go why why he's 1 hour, 24 minutes, 26 secondshe's coming back he had to do something really bad he's coming back and I'm like what what are you talking about they're like he's coming back this and they're like he doesn't look right he looks vicious and they're like freaking me out 1 hour, 24 minutes, 35 secondsI can feel things starting to shake and I'm like what are you and they're like you're his his support he loves you so much you need to stay here and talk to him so they're freaking me out dude 1 hour, 24 minutes, 43 secondsthey're scaring me and the Lord just had to judge people and I know that made him crazy right and like he comes back and 1 hour, 24 minutes, 50 secondsuh I'll probably get super emotional here because this you guys got to understand 1 hour, 24 minutes, 58 secondsI was just dead this just it's just an absolute mess it just makes I'm so ashamed of all this I'm just so broken 1 hour, 25 minutes, 6 secondsover all this but the Lord healed me you know like ibed the shame in Jesus so he comes back and takes it out on me in my
Chapter 18: True deliverance
1 hour, 25 minutes, 14 secondsmouth and every other place and keep in mind I could climax without them touching me so you can imagine how real 1 hour, 25 minutes, 23 secondsthis was and while I'm screaming out for help to stop it wouldn't stop like he was 1 hour, 25 minutes, 30 secondscreping me in my face bro like I feel it every bit of it true hell I'm screaming 1 hour, 25 minutes, 37 secondsfor Jesus to save me but it was in this time you thought that this thing was was jesuses so when I'm screaming for Jesus 1 hour, 25 minutes, 44 secondsto save me I'm also like begging it to stop it's the same thing to me my hope 1 hour, 25 minutes, 51 secondsis gone I'm hopeless Beyond imag ination I'm broken to the point of no return I 1 hour, 25 minutes, 58 secondsam so hopeless inside my soul because the thing that I just gave my heart to I just realized tricked me and is going to 1 hour, 26 minutes, 7 secondsdo this to me in hell for forever and that's I couldn't get it to stop and I'm screaming just imagine someone getting 1 hour, 26 minutes, 14 secondsgraped bro like imagine like that's what it looked like I'm screaming for it to stop there was a moment where if I 1 hour, 26 minutes, 21 secondshad some sort of shooting device I just so quick just like so so violently fast there would 1 hour, 26 minutes, 30 secondshave been no question at all the greater thing times 10 would have been an end what I was dealing with times a billion in my opinion one of the greatest 1 hour, 26 minutes, 37 secondsMiracles that I've ever personally been through is not hurting myself that night no way out of everything that's top five 1 hour, 26 minutes, 44 secondshonestly in my opinion everything I've ever been through and you're going to hear a wonderful Miracle here in a second that this leads up to and if you had something you would have done it oh 1 hour, 26 minutes, 53 secondsdude violently just like not like hopelessly no no it would have been like run to it end it but like something 1 hour, 27 minutes, 2 secondsgreater had me locked in this position something wouldn't let me you know and so this happens all night all night 1 hour, 27 minutes, 10 secondsviously it wasn't a few minutes it was vicious it was all night dude it was vicious it was the worst dude it was hell it was literal hell hell dude and 1 hour, 27 minutes, 20 secondsand so you hear about testimonies of people going to hell and these are the types of things they that demons are doing to people because it's not the lake of fire yet it's a place of Torment 1 hour, 27 minutes, 28 secondsso the Lake of Fire is where all demons and people get thrown into Lake of Fire but we're not there yet we're in this place of Torment so I really I was in 1 hour, 27 minutes, 35 secondshell but on Earth and all night and then the next day I don't sleep at all 1 hour, 27 minutes, 41 secondsyou can imagine I'm brain dead beyond anything I can describe I'm toast 1 hour, 27 minutes, 50 secondsand gone so mentally I'm so traumatized but I'm just like not even there anymore suicidal psych sorry for these certain 1 hour, 27 minutes, 58 secondswords you have to believe psychotic insane broken serial just I it's not even me at all no 1 hour, 28 minutes, 7 secondsmore I'm done and the next day is my daughter's fifth birthday dude and there's like 30 people at the 1 hour, 28 minutes, 15 secondshouse and I'm just gone I remember my father-in-law asked me if I was okay and I told him yeah I'm 1 hour, 28 minutes, 23 secondsjust talking to God a lot bro just gone it wasn't even me who said it like a demon looked him in the eyes and said yeah we're good don't don't pray over us 1 hour, 28 minutes, 32 secondslike I've been talking to God don't don't you don't have to worry about praying over me cuz I got that handled it would it just sick dude and I went 1 hour, 28 minutes, 41 secondsthat whole day I remember laughing hysterically in front of all these guests just hysterically Laughing crazy I remember that and then something 1 hour, 28 minutes, 50 secondstook me out into the field in front of we have a ranch all my kids family everybody's there and I traumatized my 1 hour, 28 minutes, 58 secondswife Beyond she she would hear me up all night talking to myself 90 miles an hour talking about the Book of Enoch all 1 hour, 29 minutes, 5 secondsthis stuff all these all these Mysteries and all these things I never even read The Book of Enoch dude and I'm like just going through it all I understood every 1 hour, 29 minutes, 13 secondsevery mystery of the whole Bible and I'm just Mass reading it through my brain all night just speaking in demonic tongues and sleeping and my wife would 1 hour, 29 minutes, 20 secondsbe up all night hearing me bro like you can imagine how traumatized and so something though that grabs me by the 1 hour, 29 minutes, 30 secondsear and takes me away where no one can see me cuz there was a big party so I get out of the view of everybody and I 1 hour, 29 minutes, 37 secondsjust fall to my knees 1 hour, 29 minutes, 41 seconds[Music] 1 hour, 29 minutes, 56 secondsit was just like instantly all of it was gone and I knew what I had been doing and the the amount of shame that came 1 hour, 30 minutes, 5 secondsover me but 1 hour, 30 minutes, 13 secondswow but this was like I got healed and I I could I could like my 1 hour, 30 minutes, 20 secondshead got lifted up cuz I was looking down and I knew it was Jesus bro I knew it was the father and it was the kingdom 1 hour, 30 minutes, 28 secondsand I couldn't see it I just knew it and I heard him for real and I felt him for real and I knew it was him because dude 1 hour, 30 minutes, 35 secondscould you imagine all that power and disgusting just go away instantly and you're just like whoa like and just the shame and he I 1 hour, 30 minutes, 45 secondswas looking down and like our Lord man he just grabs me by the chin and he's like like just not even mad he's 1 hour, 30 minutes, 54 secondsjust like son you look at me like called me son still you 1 hour, 31 minutes, 1 second[Music] 1 hour, 31 minutes, 6 secondsknow so I'm not going to tell you everything he said that day because some of it's really personal but 1 hour, 31 minutes, 14 secondshe did tell me he's like you're really getting to hear from the true God right now I don't deserve it guys 1 hour, 31 minutes, 25 secondsthere's a you know I have a Tik Tok and I make a lot of videos about Visions I have and hearing God's voice because I do I love my Lord and Savior with all my heart he save me and Deliver Me from the 1 hour, 31 minutes, 33 secondsdarkest thing and they asked me like how how come you get to and I'm like I don't deserve it I am the guy who does not 1 hour, 31 minutes, 41 secondsdeserve to hear the Lord and so he tells me to go inside and 1 hour, 31 minutes, 49 secondsapologize to my wife and look her in the eyes and tell her I'm Healed and I did confidently she knew were right away I was just I'm a different guy this could you imagine could you imagine dude 1 hour, 31 minutes, 58 secondslaughing by yourself for hours to just I'm good now we're all good it's all 1 hour, 32 minutes, 4 secondsgood but I was so ashamed the one thing that God didn't heal in that moment was the
Chapter 19: Living a new life
1 hour, 32 minutes, 11 secondsshame he took everything away but he let me be ashamed of myself for like the next year of my life 1 hour, 32 minutes, 19 secondsdeeply deep and that's all for a purpose too that's all for a wonderful purpose because over the next year of my life I 1 hour, 32 minutes, 28 secondsread my Bible every day front to back some books 50 times just the most I've 1 hour, 32 minutes, 35 secondsever read I was just I'm like you just saved my life and you he commanded me to read my Bible he said if you want me to use you I'm going to use you in a big 1 hour, 32 minutes, 44 secondsway you go inside and you start reading your Bible every day you apologize to your wife okay and so I did that I'm reading my 1 hour, 32 minutes, 52 secondsBible every day every day and that's all I'm focused on but I'm so ashamed of myself my neck bro means the Lord's blood turns me on how do you look in the 1 hour, 33 minutes, 1 secondmirror you know what I'm saying let alone look at God that's what people say they're like you need to be able to look yourself in the mirror you need to be able to look up at God 1 hour, 33 minutes, 10 secondsoh that's the world the world says you need to be able to look yourself in a mirror as a man you need to be able to look at God 1 hour, 33 minutes, 17 secondsbecause if you're looking at yourself in the mirror as a man and being able to accept who you are and yourself you're missing the whole thing you need the Lord you need the Lord dude you need the 1 hour, 33 minutes, 27 secondsLord to accept who you are and he does but if there's some sin between you and him you need to figure that out quickly because you just don't want to be on the wrong end of that hammer fist it's 1 hour, 33 minutes, 35 secondscoming soon anyways so year goes on I spend every day so 1 hour, 33 minutes, 43 secondsashamed of myself dude eight hours a day all I can think about while I'm at work and working is just everything I did and 1 hour, 33 minutes, 52 secondswhat it kept leading up to we see a lot of people like why would God let just hear it hear what it came out to we we can't try to put a button on God and his 1 hour, 34 minuteswisdom dude I couldn't understand why I was going through all the shame but it makes sense now because what it all came down to was I just was like I hate the 1 hour, 34 minutes, 9 secondsperson I've been I hate it Jesus I've done nothing but caused my wife to be an addict I come into this good Christian man I get 1 hour, 34 minutes, 18 secondshis wife addict beat up my friends all I ever wanted to do was sleep with my friends girlfriends I I I ruined 1 hour, 34 minutes, 25 secondsschool I didn't do good there I've never done anything good and I was so ashamed of myself my whole life but God forced 1 hour, 34 minutes, 32 secondsme to this place of going you must either realize that I have made you new 1 hour, 34 minutes, 39 secondsand you are born again or I didn't want to live no more I was forced into this 1 hour, 34 minutes, 47 secondsvery very very strong way of believing I am born again and made new I was forced 1 hour, 34 minutes, 55 secondsinto it I had to be dude I had to come so boldly to the throne even kind of boldly wasn't enough cuz even kind of 1 hour, 35 minutes, 3 secondsboldly had some shame attached to it and like I couldn't handle it I was like I messed up so badly in my whole like 1 hour, 35 minutes, 12 secondscould you imagine bro failing your kids like that like it just and I was supposed to be this Christian good dude bro and I failed 1 hour, 35 minutes, 21 secondsso this year goes on and God starts using me and I start sharing the gospel a lot and you know again I 1 hour, 35 minutes, 31 secondswent back to the mall they kicked me out right away they didn't want me there and they had no problem they had no problem with me when I went in there to hit on 1 hour, 35 minutes, 39 secondswomen the minute I come in to start telling about Jesus they they trespassed me call cops call my parents at 3:00 in the morning dude like you couldn't wait 1 hour, 35 minutes, 47 secondstill five like just to make it that much worse and then they made me feel like a predator and a freak I went to go talk to these young kids and they were 1 hour, 35 minutes, 56 secondslike 17 to 20 somewhere in there and I just walked up and said hey do you guys know Jesus loves you and right at that point the security card jumps in the way 1 hour, 36 minutes, 4 secondsand she's like do you know these kids you bet and made me feel like a predator dude like oh it was weird bro it sucked it it hurt me really hard but because 1 hour, 36 minutes, 12 secondsI'd still deal with shame right and you know that man must be dead because that man was a terrible man he was really actually really bad he has to be 1 hour, 36 minutes, 21 secondsdead he has to be gone you don't want him around your kids you didn't want that guy around your family you didn't want that guy around this woman you don't he has to be dead I have to be 1 hour, 36 minutes, 28 secondsmade new and I'm willing to take that step out for the whole world they make that decision you can judge me all you want but I know that I'm not the person 1 hour, 36 minutes, 36 secondsI was not because of anything I've done but because that King took it from me you know and 1 hour, 36 minutes, 44 secondsuh so sharing the gospel every day but I'm still ashamed and the shame just not going 1 hour, 36 minutes, 52 secondsaway so I start reading the Psalms and I'm like man these are really cool and I'm like there's a lot in here I'm like I can stand strong on God's 1 hour, 37 minutespromise so then like I I start like in my bedroom like a standing when I read I don't want to sit I want to stand when I read boldly you know like this is the 1 hour, 37 minutes, 9 secondsheart of God I'm going to stand then I started saying it out loud and it got to the point where I couldn't even read it unless I was standing and boldly speaking it out loud and that wasn't 1 hour, 37 minutes, 18 secondsenough no more so like I started taking my Bible up to the mountain on the ranch we're at and getting as far away from 1 hour, 37 minutes, 25 secondseverybody's possible and just like I had screamed a lot in my life I remember one time screaming at my wife 1 hour, 37 minutes, 33 secondsso bad and throwing this dresser across my house and I looked at my daughter and she was screaming bro cuz I scared her so bad I scared my wife I used to yell 1 hour, 37 minutes, 41 secondsat my wife and I yell at my kids and I beat things right you know but I couldn't sing but I know I could scream you know 1 hour, 37 minutes, 50 secondsit just sounds crazy but to me it meant a lot so I wanted to give God my voice boldly 1 hour, 37 minutes, 59 secondsthe top of my lungs and it was in that place man that the Lord showed
Chapter 20: Experiencing God's love
1 hour, 38 minutes, 14 secondsup when he showed up his righteousness just flooded over me so massively dude just like liquid 1 hour, 38 minutes, 22 secondslove p out on me it dropped me to the ground dude I got spit coming out of my mouth I'm wailing bro like just in so 1 hour, 38 minutes, 31 secondsmuch love I could just see him chasing me my whole life he never relented dude he never stopped and his righteousness 1 hour, 38 minutes, 39 secondswas so good I couldn't bear it it was so good I was such a wicked man 1 hour, 38 minutes, 49 secondsH and I'm like screaming at him subconsciously to just prove to him you need to get away from me you're too good for me I'm not I can't you're too good 1 hour, 38 minutes, 58 secondsyou're too good there was something that just needed to be healed it was all that shame man and so he wraps his arms 1 hour, 39 minutes, 7 secondsaround me I saw the holes in his hands people want to know if they're in his wrists or his hands they're in his hands oh Jesus they're in his 1 hour, 39 minutes, 16 secondshands his hands were made for love man not for beating things these hands were for holding a baby and loveing a woman 1 hour, 39 minutes, 23 secondsyou know healing somebody sorry it's a lie dude oh man 1 hour, 39 minutes, 34 secondsthank you 1 hour, 39 minutes, 37 seconds[Music] 1 hour, 39 minutes, 39 secondsso and I've told this before but every time I tell it it just breaks me and he looks me dead in the eyes he's got 1 hour, 39 minutes, 47 secondseyes of fire and all he is is Flames a beautiful flaming man of God dude 1 hour, 39 minutes, 53 secondsraging Flames Holy Spirit fire he's looking at me my soul and I can see into his I was in him and he was in me and 1 hour, 40 minutes, 2 secondsvice versa it was one and he loved me and he just like grabs me dude he looks at him my soul and he quotes the 1 hour, 40 minutes, 11 secondssong of songs 4: 4 and he says your neck is as beautiful 1 hour, 40 minutes, 20 secondsas the Tower of David and on it hang a thousand Shields and each of them is The Shield of a warrior and when he said it 1 hour, 40 minutes, 28 secondsI knew what he was saying he was saying I planned it everything will be used for your good now this is a testimony you're 1 hour, 40 minutes, 37 secondsgoing to lead many to Jesus I saw King Solomon writing that bro in the song of 1 hour, 40 minutes, 44 secondssongs but I saw our Lord in King Solomon writing it through him and I could see our Lord's heart while he was writing 1 hour, 40 minutes, 51 secondsthat and he wrote it to you bro he wrote it to me every verse in that Bible dude is a love letter the deepest 1 hour, 41 minutes, 1 secondunfathomable Love Letter to each person on this Earth individually God didn't die bro for a nameless faceless world 1 hour, 41 minutes, 10 secondsand generation he died for the world individually and I knew he wasn't 1 hour, 41 minutes, 20 secondslying I could feel it and right then and there there I got filled with all the love I could ever imagine I can't 1 hour, 41 minutes, 27 secondsdescribe it I can't I'm a changed man and what was the difference between 1 hour, 41 minutes, 36 secondsthe real Jesus and the one that presented himself as Jesus oh you can't fake it dude you can't fake that so now 1 hour, 41 minutes, 45 secondsthat I know what real love is it's 1 hour, 41 minutes, 51 secondsselflessness and it's unconditional it doesn't lie you 1 hour, 42 minutes, 1 secondknow it's I cannot like we didn't take it serious when it says he collects our tears in his bottle 1 hour, 42 minutes, 11 secondshe counts our hairs like I grew up like in dirt biking bro God loves you like he doesn't care 1 hour, 42 minutes, 18 secondsabout anything else he wants you he wants to spend time with you bro all he wants is you bro that's all God wants he 1 hour, 42 minutes, 27 secondsloves you he loves them he loves us he loves the witches he loves the warlocks bro he loves the ones that hung his son on the cross he died for them when 1 hour, 42 minutes, 36 secondsIsrael was giving their children to baale and to molock what did he do he should have wiped him off the map right you point a finger right you should God 1 hour, 42 minutes, 44 secondswill kill you you know God will and there's a righteous point of that but it if you skip love if you skip being 1 hour, 42 minutes, 51 secondswilling to die for somebody first H and you point a finger okay you're skipping Jesus so when we 1 hour, 43 minutesgo those S those LGB they they need to repent but you're not in this place of 1 hour, 43 minutes, 7 secondsunconditional just please here me then you're skipping the Lord and you're doing it from a self-righteous 1 hour, 43 minutes, 13 secondsAntichrist place period and I know this for a fact because I just know the difference now because I was so badly 1 hour, 43 minutes, 21 secondswon and I know all all of the the nature of that beast and it's everything but 1 hour, 43 minutes, 28 secondsthis which is I must go to the end for you like and so when Israel was giving 1 hour, 43 minutes, 35 secondstheir children what did God do bro he gave his son it doesn't make any sense dude it 1 hour, 43 minutes, 44 secondsdoesn't make any sense to me at all oh my gosh so you said one thing 1 hour, 43 minutes, 51 secondswhen we were talking ear you were like he loved you and he saw you and respected you and honored you the same 1 hour, 44 minutesthroughout the whole thing yeah so after I got delivered he he's been with me ever since he never left so I had this Encounter With Jesus and it never
Chapter 21: The mission ahead
1 hour, 44 minutes, 9 secondsstopped like so it wasn't just like this wonderful moment of the Lord and fire and then he left and I had go nope dude it's been fire ever sense it hasn't 1 hour, 44 minutes, 18 secondsstopped like was me and him we rolling and but one thing he showed me 1 hour, 44 minutes, 25 secondswhich was so wonderful it just breaks me every day dude every day there's a new revelation of how much he loves me and all of eternity is going to be like this we're never going to find the peak of 1 hour, 44 minutes, 32 secondshis heart he loves so much billions of trillions of ions go by and we're going to be more amazed with how much he loves us then than we are now like 1 hour, 44 minutes, 42 secondslike he loves us so much and that is why he gave his son to die for us is because he he's he loves us so much but 1 hour, 44 minutes, 49 secondsum so after I got delivered one thing he showed me was how through all that he 1 hour, 44 minutes, 57 secondsnever just like came up punched me in the gut and said like if you don't stop doing this you know I'll reject you like 1 hour, 45 minutes, 5 secondshe I could see him through the whole thing and he was just in mission mode it was always just always just doing what 1 hour, 45 minutes, 12 secondswas best for me it was almost like he was never even making a a conscious moment to be mad at me or not mad ever 1 hour, 45 minutes, 20 secondsit was always like my son's in danger I got to get him right my son's in danger I got to get him right and and it was never like so when we make mistakes dude 1 hour, 45 minutes, 28 secondsit's not like oh God was happy with you yesterday when you were doing good but now he's not happy with you that dude no he already paid for all your sins past 1 hour, 45 minutes, 36 secondspresent and future and now everything you ever do will be used for your good because he said all things will be used for the good for those who love God and 1 hour, 45 minutes, 43 secondsare called according to his purpose past present and future so the way he was with you yesterday is the way he's with you when you mess up he loves you he 1 hour, 45 minutes, 52 secondsloves you he loves you he loves you but your heart is not changed if you're taking advantage of that oh my 1 hour, 45 minutes, 59 secondsGod yeah so that's it that's the key you can't take advantage of that type of love you if you are taking advantage of 1 hour, 46 minutes, 8 secondsthat type of love you need to check your your salvation and you need to cry out for 1 hour, 46 minutes, 17 secondsthe Lord to save you we cannot fix ourselves we cannot change ourselves we 1 hour, 46 minutes, 23 secondscannot try hard enough Jesus must do it all so if you are finding yourself in 1 hour, 46 minutes, 31 secondsthis place where just this whole thing is Mega convicted you there's lots of stuff I'm saying that you're just like oh that's me that's me you're realizing you're pointing a finger you realizing 1 hour, 46 minutes, 39 secondsdoing this take a minute man get alone go close the door and just say Jesus 1 hour, 46 minutes, 47 secondssavely please and the thing about that is dude no one can take you from his hand at that point no one no one no one 1 hour, 46 minutes, 55 secondsno one no one and I am living proof of that 1 hour, 47 minutes, 2 secondsthat like to me I think we've minimized the love of God so much and it's been such a 1 hour, 47 minutes, 11 secondsdistraction for us for you to focus like look how much energy shame took from you yeah how much time how much it took from 1 hour, 47 minutes, 18 secondsyour mind how much it took from your ability to stand and be who God called you like sh will drain the purpose out 1 hour, 47 minutes, 25 secondsof you and and now I'm seeing like if we're not consumed with the love of God like now I see that there's no middle 1 hour, 47 minutes, 33 secondsground if it's not him then it's working against what he wants to do so much like 1 hour, 47 minutes, 39 secondsthe more it's not that bad that it is the worse it is because when it's not that bad you can convince someone else 1 hour, 47 minutes, 48 secondsto do it so the more like super bad it is people can kind of make that 1 hour, 47 minutes, 55 secondsoh I'll stay away from that but you can trick someone into sinning when it's not that bad see the Devil Couldn't convince 1 hour, 48 minutes, 4 secondspeople so easily to just be evil so what he's doing is he's pointing a finger at us Christians and going look at their Jesus and look at them look at these 1 hour, 48 minutes, 13 secondsHypocrites maybe Jesus maybe Jesus isn't so good after all you know you're 1 hour, 48 minutes, 19 secondssaying first of all the original sin and the Temptation was not that you could be 1 hour, 48 minutes, 26 secondsevil but you can be like God man yeah that yeah that's a big part of it for sure yeah that that's definitely a 1 hour, 48 minutes, 35 secondsprideful thing for sure yeah absolutely so like now my mind is blown 1 hour, 48 minutes, 43 secondsbecause we were having this conversation about judgment the people that Jesus kind of held accountable and all that 1 hour, 48 minutes, 51 secondsand I know you said it already but now I'm starting to realize man we can literally be on the side of the 1 hour, 49 minutesenemy mm when we're not like fully loving and seeing people the way that he 1 hour, 49 minutes, 6 secondsdoes many will come to me in that day and say Lord Lord didn't I 1 hour, 49 minutes, 14 secondsprophesy in your name we've been wondering who that was every one of us went that was somebody else every one of 1 hour, 49 minutes, 21 secondsus heard that verse ver and went who who's that no who's going to be the ones that do that it's we have to cry out to 1 hour, 49 minutes, 30 secondsJesus to save us you know what I'm saying and when you do when your hope is 1 hour, 49 minutes, 37 secondsin the Lord you are saved what are we saved from guys we we we we we we we 1 hour, 49 minutes, 45 secondskept saying it it's a game of Mad God bro we're saved by grace through faith in Christ right saved saved save from 1 hour, 49 minutes, 53 secondswhat everything's good no no no no you need to cry out you need the Lord to save you I'm serious cuz I know what 1 hour, 50 minuteswe're up against and you can't win you won't win it's really evil so you're also talking about how we grossly underestimate the evil and the power of 1 hour, 50 minutes, 9 secondsthe enemy yeah yeah so what I learned is Lucifer is very very powerful the image that I kind of created through a 1 hour, 50 minutes, 18 secondslot of the churches I went to Growing Up and a lot of the preaching I went through growing up is can't be in all places at once and it kind of created 1 hour, 50 minutes, 26 secondsthis picture of this exalted man single-minded Lucifer bro the reason why 1 hour, 50 minutes, 36 secondsyou underestimated Satan is because you under glorified God like he was 1 hour, 50 minutes, 43 secondsthe greatest angel in an unfathomable unimaginable 1 hour, 50 minutes, 52 secondsNeverEnding powerful Kingdom Of An Almighty all knowing Unthinkable 1 hour, 51 minutesGod you think it was just some dude who can't be in like bro Lucifer is much more the you must 1 hour, 51 minutes, 9 secondscry out I'm trying to tell you man you have to cry out to Jesus because Lucifer is very powerful and he's got a really 1 hour, 51 minutes, 18 secondsreally really really hardcore case of multiple personal ity disorder and I have like God's kind of shown me where 1 hour, 51 minutes, 27 secondsin like 500 different people all acting all characters on the internet all at once it's all him in that moment 1 hour, 51 minutes, 35 secondsliterally playing all characters all at once deceiving each person specifically in that moment how they calculated that 1 hour, 51 minutes, 43 secondsthat person would best be deceived like it is so deep it's so comp more complex than dude than you ever than you ever
Chapter 22: Overcoming fear
1 hour, 51 minutes, 51 secondsthought bro and that's just like a principality bro like one like Lucifer God's telling me that that Lucifer is 1 hour, 51 minutes, 58 secondsmuch bigger than most Christians have ever exalted God to be straight up that's God started beginning to expand 1 hour, 52 minutes, 7 secondsmy mind to this and it only glorifies God more I'm not trying to glorify I'm only glorifying God more because the bigger you find out Lucifer is the much 1 hour, 52 minutes, 16 secondsmore bigger God is you know what I'm saying so because we under we we underestimate it we didn't glorify God 1 hour, 52 minutes, 23 secondswe just thought Lucifer was nothing you know and that's what he wanted like I have a a brother or a cousin-in-law that's been shot at 47 times he's got 1 hour, 52 minutes, 32 secondssome PTSD but he's healing and stuff and the number one thing he always tells me is do not underestimate your enemy and that's oh Satan can't do that Satan 1 hour, 52 minutes, 41 secondscan't be in all places at once Satan can't do that that's all I hear oh Satan can't can't can't you need to start realizing it's worst case scenario and 1 hour, 52 minutes, 48 secondsyou need Jesus to save you because if it's not worst case scenario then it's not the devil bro if it's not 1 hour, 52 minutes, 55 secondslike that's what people can't realize is they're like why if you talk to I talked to a luciferian the other day at the Denver Airport and and I've talked to 1 hour, 53 minutes, 3 secondsothers and their thing that they can't wrap their head around okay is why would this beautiful angel leave heaven 1 hour, 53 minutes, 12 secondsto to knowing he's going to burn in hell for forever and they can't fathom it so they're easily because they can't 1 hour, 53 minutes, 20 secondsunderstand they're easily told by the devil I'm actually the good one and I was kicked out to bring light to you guys and that God doesn't want the good 1 hour, 53 minutes, 28 secondsthings for you guys this is what they believe bro they believe God's evil and they believe Lucifer's good and they believe it they're not like we look at 1 hour, 53 minutes, 37 secondsthe Satanist and go oh you evil Satanist but in their minds they're like they're thinking logically and they're trying to be like in some form of righteous like 1 hour, 53 minutes, 44 secondsthey really actually Underdog like no he got treated poorly yes they they're they really think God's evil and they're like no you guys are tricked you guys are 1 hour, 53 minutes, 53 secondstricked and we're like no you're tricked well somebody needs to stand in authority and love and break that tension and that's our job as Christians 1 hour, 54 minutesbro so our job is to stand in the authority of Love Of Love yes it's not 1 hour, 54 minutes, 6 secondsto be to wrestle against flesh and blood I think that's kind of one of the greatest Revelations that I'm kind of 1 hour, 54 minutes, 13 secondsstepping into into this season I think as much as we underestimate God we underestimate our enemy we underestimate the power of love and our position in 1 hour, 54 minutes, 21 secondslove and how intimidating how transformational that is beyond like we're scared of witches 1 hour, 54 minutes, 29 secondsyes scared of them why are you scared of them why are you scared of them Jesus Christ died on the cross for our sins we've given all authority in the name of 1 hour, 54 minutes, 38 secondsJesus why are you scared of Witchcraft why are we scared of Lucifer why are we SC why are we so scared to go tell the 1 hour, 54 minutes, 46 secondspeople who need him the most it's like we're we're letting Satan punch Us in the face and beat us into this submission bro when we have the Holy 1 hour, 54 minutes, 55 secondsSpirit that Rose Jesus from the dead and 2,000 years later we still can't seem to figure that out dude the best we came up 1 hour, 55 minutes, 2 secondswith bro the best we came up with I've seen like a handful of people in my whole life that didn't do this the best we came up with is if they don't repent 1 hour, 55 minutes, 11 secondsthey're going to burn yeah so we should be doing everything we can dude if you 1 hour, 55 minutes, 18 secondsthis is another thing that accuses us if you know that they're going to burn and you won't say nothing then you must hate 1 hour, 55 minutes, 27 secondsthem oh my gosh and we it can you I can't argue with that can you it's 1 hour, 55 minutes, 34 secondseither you don't believe that Jesus is Lord or you don't love your neighbor you hate them one or the other so maybe the 1 hour, 55 minutes, 42 secondswhole church needs to step back a little bit dude and truly take a second and go do I believe in heaven and hell do I 1 hour, 55 minutes, 50 secondsbelieve in the salvation of Jesus Christ if so then why am I not willing to talk to that person why am I not willing to 1 hour, 55 minutes, 59 secondsdo this do I hate them that like we really have to ask these questions we can't keep writing it off anymore dude come on bro like 1 hour, 56 minutes, 6 secondsseriously this is the charge for us this is it this is God this is a Grace right now for all of us me you all of us we all need Grace bro this is God in these 1 hour, 56 minutes, 15 secondslast days creating a beautiful studio with a wonderful man of God and everybody watching we're all a body this 1 hour, 56 minutes, 22 secondsis for our Christians and others we can do this we can put that clothing of white 1 hour, 56 minutes, 29 secondson the Lord can he can he can he can clean his bride on he can put us in that 1 hour, 56 minutes, 36 secondswhite clothing and he can come get his church and that's what he's trying to do we've been we just fell for it guys we 1 hour, 56 minutes, 44 secondsjust all been falling for it in my opinion I'm not trying to point or hurt nobody I'm just saying we've been falling for it if the shoe good 1 hour, 56 minutes, 53 secondsnot things that truly repent they the Lord I'm not pointing at everybody I'm saying if thee fits here don't let Satan 1 hour, 57 minutes, 2 secondsjust again say you know what I'll deal with this tomorrow you if you are being convicted you must ask the hard 1 hour, 57 minutes, 10 secondsquestions and you must make it life and death and you must go what I just said do do you believe in Jesus do you really 1 hour, 57 minutes, 18 secondswell if you do if you really believe in Jesus then you know that sin must be paid for and that person's carrying the weight of their sin and they need to 1 hour, 57 minutes, 25 secondsknow the love of God and and then if you're not willing to do that then step aside stop calling yourself a Christian dude stop lifting your hands every 1 hour, 57 minutes, 33 secondsSunday stop lifting your hands and claiming the Holy Spirit when you don't got it because the Holy Spirit would give you what it took to go do 1 hour, 57 minutes, 40 secondsthat and I don't mean to be harsh bro but this is the way I speak to myself I have to speak to myself this way and and 1 hour, 57 minutes, 49 secondsthis is what's changed me so now I have all these wonderful testimonies dude of like just this summer of loan in person 1 hour, 57 minutes, 56 secondsI think over a hundred people have asked Christ in their heart in my city there's a card reader shop that is 1 hour, 58 minutes, 4 secondscompletely closed down because I went in there and led her to the Lord she came to tears she closed her shop down a month later there's a a homeless 1 hour, 58 minutes, 12 secondsoverflow I go to and when I first started going there dude I would I would I would round everybody up and I 1 hour, 58 minutes, 19 secondswould I would get a $100 bill and break it into small bills and pay all some money get them all in the same area get 40 people and I would just start preaching I'd be like who's running from 1 hour, 58 minutes, 27 secondstheir God God would tell me that you say you tell you go down there son cuz I have a few that are hiding from me and you go say who's running from God and I 1 hour, 58 minutes, 35 secondswould just say that over and over people would start coming out and they'd be like I want to reconcile with Jesus I want the Lord in my life and they'd cry and we pray over them dude demons 1 hour, 58 minutes, 42 secondsmanifest but most of them would cuss me out at this point now of going there almost every day after work bro and spending time with these people I've had 1 hour, 58 minutes, 50 secondsalmost a moment with every single one of them where every one of them has cried and asked Jesus into their life to forgive them of their sins and now when 1 hour, 58 minutes, 58 secondsI go down there dude we a family they want to pray it's just an and I'm just one man bro just one man you know so what can we truly do as a body come on
Chapter 23: Resting in Jesus
1 hour, 59 minutes, 7 secondsbro what what like look at what you're see what I'm saying I don't have this studio but you and I together now we're getting this to hundreds of thousands of 1 hour, 59 minutes, 15 secondspeople or however you know what I'm saying what happens when we put in our what happens when we're willing to 1 hour, 59 minutes, 22 secondsrealize that it's not about us now in this life and what we can obtain now that there's something so much greater 1 hour, 59 minutes, 29 secondsit takes Faith guys it takes Faith but you what are you going to do say no come on it's forever dude and it's our Lord 1 hour, 59 minutes, 38 secondswe're going to risk that over well here's the thing you know a Lambo or something like what what what I think what I think is happening 1 hour, 59 minutes, 46 secondsis many of us have not encountered Christ for real because what you experience first of all where you come 1 hour, 59 minutes, 54 secondsfrom and experiencing the love of God in that way when we're in the car man you guys don't understand this dude was like I was like we have a little conflict of 2 hours, 2 secondstime I was like we have like an hour to spare he could have said man yo I want to get a nap I want to go here I want to 2 hours, 10 secondsgo eat he says we the homeless okay do you guys think that that's something that a natural man 2 hours, 19 secondswould ask he's not he's not living in his own will he's not living in his own desire where are the homeless you know 2 hours, 26 secondswho who asked that Jesus Christ yeah bro that's cool it's not you bro I appreciate that and when I saw 2 hours, 33 secondshim I saw him talking to people I looked at him and I'm just like you know in the same way bro like the enemy used you and 2 hours, 41 secondsit wasn't you in the same way bro I'm like bro you know this is not you yeah cuz it it comes out all like really cool 2 hours, 49 secondsyeah it's like the love of God yeah who's out of you I'm like bro it's not you I'm like kind of taking a backseat too I'm watching while you're watching 2 hours, 57 secondsand the Lord's just doing his thing bro it's crazy and I love what you said because it's just like man if if you say the holy spirit is living in you you got 2 hours, 1 minute, 5 secondsthe same Jesus in you and this same Lord is not prompting you to love not prompting you to forgive not prompting 2 hours, 1 minute, 13 secondsyou to go out and and represent him and show a hurting world like literally people are in Chains next to you you saying this living God is in you and 2 hours, 1 minute, 21 secondswants to be Sil and is not crying to say yo that's my son that's my daughter love on them show 2 hours, 1 minute, 29 secondsthem the love of God yeah man you saying that Holy Spirit in you is telling you to condemn them that Holy Spirit is telling you to ignore them no and 2 hours, 1 minute, 38 secondsneglect them it's not man it's not at all or have we gone to such a place that we're at such war with this Holy Spirit 2 hours, 1 minute, 46 secondsthat's living inside of them us that we're muffling this God that's living in US yeah that we're Crea a form of 2 hours, 1 minute, 54 secondsgodliness completely denying its power and even worse than that it's like we're past that prophecy of Paul we've created a form of godliness dude that is 2 hours, 2 minutes, 2 secondsself-righteous and points a finger at everyone else while we call ourselves the good ones it's actually bad I I I'm starting to understand the side of 2 hours, 2 minutes, 10 secondseverybody else who's like you guys are hypocrites but because we were in a place of Defense J they were you know all these singers are doing this rituals 2 hours, 2 minutes, 18 secondson stage and the Satanist stuff so we're in this place of defense but we weren't supposed to be afraid of it we were supposed to stand in authority and love 2 hours, 2 minutes, 27 secondsand if that was the place we were in we wouldn't be in a place of Defense punching these people back we'd be in a place of well it ain't going to touch us 2 hours, 2 minutes, 35 secondsso we need to go get them you know because we think we think we really don't believe in the power that is within us that's why we we want to take 2 hours, 2 minutes, 44 secondsthe time to criticize it we want to point the finger because we don't believe that the love and the power of God that's within us can change things 2 hours, 2 minutes, 51 secondsyeah exactly right exactly right but but then when you when you hear somebody on like a pastor talk about having faith 2 hours, 2 minutes, 59 secondsthere's a spirit in the back of your mind that goes I have faith and you all know it everybody knows it we go yeah I have faith I'm not one of them do 2 hours, 3 minutes, 6 secondsyou what happens when God says I need I need all the money that you needed this 2 hours, 3 minutes, 13 secondsmonth are we going to do it you know can God pay our bills bro or did we undere 2 hours, 3 minutes, 23 secondsexalt the god that therefore definitely underestimating Satan and just this 2 hours, 3 minutes, 30 secondswhole thing is kind of flatlined you know what I'm saying and that's basic that's just it's so simple you know but it's not because sin blinds you and so 2 hours, 3 minutes, 40 secondsthe same types of sin that were blinding me into falling into this really nasty thing is the same types of sin that the 2 hours, 3 minutes, 47 secondsentire lukewarm church is in that is going to turn every Christian man into a defiled one if we do not cry out to the name of Jesus because the same Jesus 2 hours, 3 minutes, 56 secondsdude that is that was in me that was that fake Jesus is actually the same fake Jesus that is trying to pollute the 2 hours, 4 minutes, 3 secondsentire nation okay and we must cry out for help because there's coming a day where where the angel is going to give 2 hours, 4 minutes, 12 secondsAuthority for man to kill man and I actually believe that that that spirit that fake Jesus that Antichrist spirit 2 hours, 4 minutes, 19 secondsin US is what is going to trigger and we're all going to hurt each other because of just this mindset that I describe to you guys I believe it's just 2 hours, 4 minutes, 27 secondsgoing to be like men that are one day claiming to be good man I won't cheat on my wife and I love God but but really 2 hours, 4 minutes, 34 secondsthey're like watching adult content and they're they're making all these defilements behind closed doors and they're not walking with God they're not 2 hours, 4 minutes, 43 secondsit's it's we make mistakes I'm not talking about mistakes guys I'm talking about over and over and over and I'm 2 hours, 4 minutes, 51 secondstalking about having something in you that's not Jesus and thinking it is it's a big deal so 2 hours, 4 minutes, 58 secondssomeday I believe these many men and I've seen like a vision of this and I also live this because at one minute I 2 hours, 5 minutes, 6 secondswas a good dude that I thought yes I was I was like I love Jesus I wouldn't cheat on my wife I wouldn't do these bad 2 hours, 5 minutes, 13 secondsthings two weeks later bro I'm sleeping with demons and being defiled and 2 hours, 5 minutes, 20 secondsdoing things with Jesus Christ Christ himself and his blood and the neck tattoo and it's like what happened it was like it was already already there dude it was already in me you're 2 hours, 5 minutes, 29 secondscondemned already if if if if your hope is not in the Lord You're condemned already and that's what people don't understand and we must begin to 2 hours, 5 minutes, 38 secondsunderstand that so in in a sense if we allow complacently a false Jesus to rest 2 hours, 5 minutes, 46 secondsin us we're we're being primed for the latter days of Destruction Jud I've said it better 2 hours, 5 minutes, 55 secondsyeah and it it it comes to this analogy of the crab in the pot every generation 2 hours, 6 minutes, 1 secondjust doesn't think that it's that bad but if you look at the one before they're always looking up and going you 2 hours, 6 minutes, 8 secondsguys are pretty wrecked and if you look at the one next to you you're always like man they're doing some wild stuff but then every generation doesn't see it 2 hours, 6 minutes, 17 secondsthey're just like it's just the way it is it's the it's the crab in the Boiling Pot and it's a about to start boiling it's a we're right there dude it's over 2 hours, 6 minutes, 26 secondslike we I mean we have to expect it Paul himself expected it to happen in his life Jesus warned us about thinking it 2 hours, 6 minutes, 34 secondswas going to be a long way ways away and thinking the master was tering right he warned us against that mentality we must 2 hours, 6 minutes, 41 secondsbegin to believe okay that God is coming now and I don't want to spend forever without all you guys you know I don't 2 hours, 6 minutes, 49 secondswant to spend forever without my enemy I don't want to spend forever without my childhood friends who don't know Jesus I don't want to spend forever without the people that work I laugh and love but 2 hours, 6 minutes, 57 secondsI'm too afraid to tell them about the Lord I don't want to dude and I have the whole holy spirit so I'm like Lord dude I don't even want it you're telling me I 2 hours, 7 minutes, 4 secondshave all this power I don't even want it if I can't lead these people to Jesus and I can is the thing I can and so you 2 hours, 7 minutes, 12 secondssay well I might not know how to do that right first of all you got to start somewhere okay and you can't fail you cannot fail because all things work for 2 hours, 7 minutes, 20 secondsthe good for those who love God and are called according to his purposes so that means even the seemingly failure things God will pull them around so you have 2 hours, 7 minutes, 27 secondsroom to try and mess up but God will use it for good you just have to trust that 2 hours, 7 minutes, 34 secondsyou can't fail go try go let him treat you bad go let them mock you but you know I finally come to this place where 2 hours, 7 minutes, 42 secondsI'm very successful at leading people to Jesus Christ I'm not trying I just am because I'm not doing it I don't force 2 hours, 7 minutes, 50 secondsnothing I let the the Lord open every door I let him do every part of the conversation I let him do all of it I 2 hours, 7 minutes, 58 secondsdon't force nothing I just let it happen and let the Holy Spirit do it and it's like resting in Jesus un trusting that 2 hours, 8 minutes, 6 secondshe will be god dude I went we went to willingness to share the gospel that's what part of the armor was the the feet ready to willingness to share the gospel 2 hours, 8 minutes, 16 secondsit wasn't so much go share it which we are called to share it but there's a willingness if you're ready and willing like keep your eyes out keep your eyes 2 hours, 8 minutes, 23 secondsout Lord I'm ready I'm ready God's like okay just keep watching I got you you know bro if here's the thing let me tell 2 hours, 8 minutes, 31 secondsyou something yeah bro I sometimes feel like God has a two-fold mission with this podcast one is well maybe 2 hours, 8 minutes, 40 secondsthree-fold but one the two that I know is this is definitely for the people that are listening but if I have to say 2 hours, 8 minutes, 47 secondsthis is for me yeah I and I told you that yeah I said I believe that God has something for me yeah and it's so good 2 hours, 8 minutes, 56 secondsbro to know you're loved and held like you don't have to be this tough guy we don't got to do that let Jesus carry 2 hours, 9 minutes, 2 secondsthat let's just love him let's just love each other you know you a got to carry it all bro you ain't got to do it all 2 hours, 9 minutes, 9 secondsdog he's got you he's building it but the devil can lie to you and say you got to keep 2 hours, 9 minutes, 16 secondsstressing why not try to give up and see if it keeps happening and then you'll know it's God's will you know what so if it keeps happening you know it's God's 2 hours, 9 minutes, 23 secondswill if it doesn't what you think you're strong enough to collapse God's will you're not dude you're not 2 hours, 9 minutes, 32 secondsbro straight up yeah bro if you can man there are people that are listening 2 hours, 9 minutes, 39 secondsto this pod and there's a lot of conviction of course lot people you said a lot of stuff that people are just 2 hours, 9 minutes, 45 secondsreally relating to yeah man if we truly believe that Jesus is who he says he is 2 hours, 9 minutes, 53 secondsand the power of his love is that powerful and he's that strong and he's that good then we will experience him in 2 hours, 10 minutes, 1 secondamazing ways and the people that are around us are going to come in contact with this Jesus CU we don't like you said something that really startled me 2 hours, 10 minutes, 9 secondsyou was like Jesus is coming now I hadn't heard that language until Jesus actually said it to me because people were I was I'm from the age where it 2 hours, 10 minutes, 16 secondssays Jesus is coming soon yeah it's now now dude and when he used the term now I'm like that's different and so if you 2 hours, 10 minutes, 26 secondscould pray a prayer for those that are listening yeah you go ahead and pray 2 hours, 10 minutes, 32 secondspray for me as well man so that we can cry out to the true and living God 2 hours, 10 minutes, 39 secondsbecause there's so much that he wants to do and we've been you said it to me earlier Waring against the spirit of God 2 hours, 10 minutes, 49 secondsand it's time to surrender Cor all right well then I'm going to say it as plainly as I can one more time you guys can't fix 2 hours, 10 minutes, 57 secondsyourselves he has to do it so Faith happens when you're pushed into a situation by God where you find 2 hours, 11 minutes, 6 secondsout you can't do it and he did it okay so we cry out so Lord Jesus I pray that
Chapter 24: Prayer and closing
2 hours, 11 minutes, 13 secondsthat is the message today at most Lord that you touch you wrap your your nail scarred hands like you did me around 2 hours, 11 minutes, 21 secondsevery person watching and listening Lord Jesus merciful god king of kings and I just pray you wrap your hands around 2 hours, 11 minutes, 29 secondsthem and you showed them that they can give up and cry out to you because we're 2 hours, 11 minutes, 36 secondssaved by grace through faith in that cry we're saved by grace through faith and crying out to Jesus Christ and what he 2 hours, 11 minutes, 45 secondsdid on the cross for our sins no one not one of us could have made it we all go oh that wasn't that bad what he did did on the cross you couldn't have made it 2 hours, 11 minutes, 53 secondswe got to we got to submit so I just pray that's what we do all of us and I lift everybody up you love them so much 2 hours, 12 minutesSatan I bind you all the condemnation you stay away from all God's people we have authority in the name of Jesus 2 hours, 12 minutes, 7 secondsdemons come out Spirits get away condemnations lies and strongholds be gone now in the name of Jesus Christ the 2 hours, 12 minutes, 16 secondsKing of Kings and we pray power and deliverance in Jesus mighty name of generational curs is broken right now 2 hours, 12 minutes, 24 secondsin the name of Jesus Christ just I pray for Mass Deliverance every time this is watched in Jesus mighty name Lord we 2 hours, 12 minutes, 31 secondsexalt you King I bow I'm submitted that's where I meet you God that's my place my places at your at your feet 2 hours, 12 minutes, 39 secondsLord sometimes Lord Jesus I wish my hair was longer so I could weep on your feet like that woman who washed your feet with your hair like I just love you Lord 2 hours, 12 minutes, 48 secondsthank you Jesus amen thank you Lord thank you Lord thank you Lord thank you Lord I can't do it glory glory glory 2 hours, 12 minutes, 56 secondsLord and I thank you for your son I thank you for the way he's poured out and he's shared God I thank you oh God because the enemy wanted to silence your 2 hours, 13 minutes, 4 secondsson the enemy wanted to keep him from this moment but I thank you because you are so much more great you're so much 2 hours, 13 minutes, 11 secondsmore powerful you're so much more in tune God and Lord I Thank you for his heart I thank you that you're keeping his heart and that you're going to use 2 hours, 13 minutes, 19 secondshis heart more than anything more than his testimony more than his skills more you're going to use his heart to 2 hours, 13 minutes, 27 secondsbring many to your kingdom and I thank you for this connection I pray oh Lord as you continue to journey us Lord we 2 hours, 13 minutes, 35 secondscontinue to grow in you in your love in your knowledge oh God in faith and in fear of you we thank you king of Glory 2 hours, 13 minutes, 44 secondsthank you for the restoration for the many that are hearing this that are going to share this video I just pray that you lace it lace it with your power 2 hours, 13 minutes, 51 secondspower soon as they get the link God you begin to start working soon as they hear the first words oh God you'll begin to start working I thank you because it is 2 hours, 13 minutes, 59 secondsdone Satan you are bound you will have no form of ability to be able to impact or distract those who listen to this in 2 hours, 14 minutes, 8 secondsthe mighty name of Jesus we pray amen and amen I want to say one more thing real fast if anybody else needs 2 hours, 14 minutes, 17 secondsto I I want to get this out there as much as POS I'll leave my email yes with you you 2 hours, 14 minutes, 24 secondsput in the link and I guess my Tik Tok I'm not too worried about it as far as getting any of my own platform built I just want to get the message out 2 hours, 14 minutes, 33 secondsthere so if there's somebody else who needs me on a podcast or something we can talk about that and I'll leave my stuff with you I want to encourage you guys and I would not entrust this 2 hours, 14 minutes, 43 secondsplatform to people who I didn't believe our caring the spirit of the Living God I would say there are some of you who 2 hours, 14 minutes, 51 secondsmight need prayer who have questions who are just in really horrible places you're actually witnessing a man who 2 hours, 14 minutes, 58 secondstruly loves God and truly loves his people so we're going to put his info in the description we're going to leave 2 hours, 15 minutes, 6 secondswhatever imper information that you might need and just just come with it because I know God has so much in store I told you 2 hours, 15 minutes, 14 secondsman start preparing getting the stuff ready whatever you got make it available because that door will be knocked on so thank than you brother for being with me 2 hours, 15 minutes, 22 secondsmanks bro thank you so much bless you man love you bro love you
